mister, where are you?

My last weekend was spent at Pulau Mechan.
One of the Riau islands, a part of Indonesia.
Pure fun.
Swimming is always on the agenda everyday.

Sorry joyriders for my absence.
I wished I was with all of you too.
But then again, family always comes first.
I'm looking forward to the next one though.
Hopefully there will be another one.
The frame is nice. Very sweet of the two of you.

"The singtel mobile customer that you have reached is not available. Your number will be sent via sms to the customer. Good bye."
mister, where are you? where have you been? pls don't keep me waiting. I'm so so worried now.


~i.miss.aura.~

let down

utter disappointment.

and

i miss

my wild-wyldkatz

cambodia oh cambodia

Love House

I survived in Cambodia.
I survived the rocks on the wall too.
heh.

Rockclimbing was fun.
It was even more great when its with the YEP-ians.

Dinner with my fellow YEP-ians at Seoul Garden on thursday.
Food was super-nice...hehe..
and the guy in orange sweater was super-good looking..
*winkz*

Teacher at the orphanage replied my mail.
It so nice to hear from them.
I'm missing Love House....

I miss my Handsome...
"You lazy...No No..YOU lazy.."

i want my Cambodia!

2 days after we touched down at Changi Airport.
Like Ulfy, i'm still in the midst of adjusting my life here.
As a busy Singaporean moving in a very fast pace.

I got najib, yazid and aisah to join me at BK as soon as the group was dispersed.
I was craving for the Turkey Bacon Burger.
After which najib sent me to Ibu's shop.

Thank you dear.
Thank you Yazid.
Thank you Aisah. a very nice surprise you gave us.
Thank you for sending and welcoming us back.

I miss the children a lot.
Like A LOT.
I miss my lil Hong who refused to let go of me on the last day.
I miss my Samphors who is appears strong but very fragile.
I miss my Handsome boy.
I miss my Mysterious twin who gave me an inspriration.
I miss my cheeky Sosna.
I miss my lil Mey Mey.
I miss my emo-Chanthy.
I miss my cute Pechko.
I miss all of them....
*sigh*

Anyone wants to join me on another trip there?
My plan is to save as much money as I can and pay them a visit before 2010; which is 4 years from now.
*Ulfy, start saving ok. heh. you know i know.

YEP-ians, i miss you guys too.
so LOOking forward to Monday.
Till then,
Take care.

Missing Cambodia

I am back.
Safely.
But not in one piece.
Coz i've left a big part of me there.
With the children.

The 14 days was over.
I wanted more.
However, we have to come back to reality.
The 14 days was great.
Extremely great.

Missing the children.Missing their laughter.
Missing their smiles.Missing the big green gate.
Missing the che-kais.Missing everything about Love House.

I'll come back soon, children. Insya-Allah.

my heart cries everytime i listen to the song
Top of the world - The Carpenters

Such a feelings coming over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream

Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen

I'm on the top of the world looking down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
It's the love that I've found eversince you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's telling me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasing sense of happiness for me

There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here

12.03.06
Thank you Mister.
Pizza was great.
You were great.
Everything was great.
Wished the day was longer.
Missing you.

11.03.06
The day which marks my last game for the league.
Will be missing two games.
Coz i'll be in another part of the earth. hah.
Despite the lack of sleep, find it amazing that i could still play just now.
(the only sleep i had was at changi airport canteen after lunch with yaz n najib..which was merely half an hour)

I'm sorry though. For not being me just now.
It started out well. It ended badly.
Was just pissed with something.
Wellie, Good Luck Fellow Squirrettes.

09.03.06/10.03.06
Thank you for the chalet, NP Floorball.
I had a really wonderful time.
Time pass so quickly.
Again i wish the day would be longer.

Looking back at my journey in NP Floorball,
I feel so fortunate to find a family in each of my fellow floorballers.
I'll miss each and everyone of you.
I've learnt alot too.
Leading was never easy. However, thank you all. I made it to the end.
Thank you, NPFB.
Thank you, Wyldkatz.
Memories will stay etched in my mind.

Joyride was at night.
We had loads of fun.
Started out with a supper at Changi Village.
The bapoks were so damn pretty n sexy lor.
Jealous aku...ahaha..
I can still remember one wearing a see through skirt which is oh-so-short with a white g-string.
ewwww.....

Then, we sent ira to her place.
it was 2+ in the morning by then.
Three of us (me, ayu, ulfy) insisted that we sent her up to the 10th floor.
Waited till she got in her house before we went back down.
Something unexplainable happened after that.
hah. Longest lift ride as stated by Ulfy in her blog.
(By the way, ulfy, it didnt stop on the 9th but 8th.)
Lift went down as per normal. But stopped on the 8th floor.
Door opened. No one.
And ulf went....army, army, bang, bang (imitating the gun action)
I told the other 2 tat maybe i accidentally pressed the button.
So i pressed the close button as i was nearest to it. with ayu beside me n ulfy on the opposite side.
Door closed. Went down. Stopped on the 7th floor.
Door opened. Again no one.
i sensed something's wrong by then. just didnt say anithing.
And ulfy went army, army, bang, bang..(again imitating the gun action)..
quickly pressed the close button.
Door closed. Lift moved. Skipped 6th.
Stopped at level 5. Ayu was hiding behind me then not wanting to look at the door.
Door opened. No one.
By then, ulfy stopped her army, army, bang, bang. n went silent.
Quickly pressed the close button. But the lift just didnt move.
Panicked. Pressed the level 1 button. n lucky for us, it moved.
phew!
Again it stopped at level 4.
Was really scared mannnn...
Already forming images in my mind. Never know who's waiting at the door.
Door opened. No one.
Lin: (stumbling and mumbling words) call.call someone. call them.
Me quickly pressed the close button. Lift moved.
Ulfy: Ok. (took out phone and called yazid)
Ayu: (silent)
Ulfy: (sue answered the phone) eh sue. pls get someone to wait for us at level 1. something happened. pls.
Stopped again at Level 3 and 2.
Same thing happened.
However, there was indeed someone at Level 2.
Ulfy: eh got.got someone.
Lin/Ayu: (Panicked) who??
Ulfy: There at the door.
Yes. there was someone. But not that 'thing'. Lucky sia.
Was just a man at his door, opening the gate to his flat.
Door closed. N moved. We were all waiting infront of the door trying to be the first to get out of the lift.
But no one was waiting for us at level 1. call urself a friend? hah.
We ran to the carpark. But no trajet waiting.
haiyoh...
started moving around to spot the car.
Then we finally see the car.
Once in the car. we told them what happened.
Found out that they actually wanted to scare us by parking at another place.
So the mean lor. ohhh such loyal friends i have...hee.
After that we had problems finding our way out of the carpark.
Funny. its like sumthing didnt want us to go back.
spooooooooooooky.

Yazid drove us to see the airplanes.
Changi airport is so damn nice at night. or maybe morning.
The stars were so pretty too.
Lucky us to get to see the airplane took off.
Very the nice.

Next stop was tanjong rhu.
love the brigde.
love the lightings.
love the scenery.

got back to the chalet around 5. did my isyak.
n played twister with sue, aisah n ulfy.
ayu surrendered. she went to sleep.
we were making a hell of noise.
n disturbing others in their sleep.
sowie hor.
twister was fun.
and i'm the winner.
hehe....

Thank you joyriders.
For the laughter and fun.
i Love the company.

will miss all of u badly.
looking forward to the next ride.
till then, take care.
miss me while i'm at cambodia.

Mister, i love you.
you miss me too.....ok...
*muacks*

05.03.06
A whole day slacking at home.
*bored*

04.03.06
FC Squirrettes vs Moosettez
0 - 11

1st period : 0-2
2nd period: 0-0
3rd period: 0-9

We lost. Expected. Like duRh!
But hey i was proud of us. of my girls.
Despite being in a losing game, we never gave up.
And to think we managed to hold them back during the 2nd period.
Love you all, dear Squirrettes.

03.03.06
My Mister and me went for a play at Tampines which Sue was acting in.
Erm..truthfully..i didnt expect the play to be that good.
Congrats Shaiful.
Congrats Sue. You were great, babe.

02.03.06
Our own potluck gathering at Irliana's.
Had loads of fun.
and loads of food. *yummy*

Saw II was cool.
hah.
Girls being girls.
We were screaming our hearts out.
And covering our faces with cushions.

Next movie was 'A Walk To Remember'.
It was such a touching show.

hmmm...
when will we be meeting again, meanies?

then..now

26.02.06

Whatever people think of us..
I still feel Squirrettes n Wyldkatz are the best team I've been in.
We're a family.
Not a team with some stuck up, arrogant players.


then... and... now...

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25.02.06

Thank you Mister.
Every moment spent is a moment I treasure.
"When will it be our turn to fly to Switzerland?"
*deep thoughts*

|triple hugs for you dearie|

surprise.

Surprise call from Perdaus.
*smiles*

Time flies when you're enjoying it.
I want more of today!
Thanks girls for the time spent.

More swimming sessions.
More night-movie sessions.
More n more of everything.
I loike~!

its not the quantity but the quality.

Badly missing my Mister.
Absence makes the heart grows fonder..
Quite true huh..

missing my dearie

School has ended.
I have graduated.
I've finally come to the end of the journey.
My journey in Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

It has been a roller coaster ride for me.
Gained some souls whom I can call them friends.
Even lose some along the way.

Relationships that I've built with people has taught me many things.
Some friends stay when you need them.
But some will flee.

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Can't believe that i'm a student-no-more. *boohoo*
Hopefully the application I've sent for ntu is successful.
With the little As, many Bs + Cs, i doubt so.
But yazid told me to be optimistic.
So yah..I'll keep trying if it doesnt get through.
Hopefully they are attracted with my achievements in Floorball.

I'm missing my Mister.
Badly.
The last time we met was on Monday.
During traning at the CC.
But I still miss him like alot!
We've not been spending quality time together.
At all times to be called up for reservice..
*sigh*
miss you.love you.

13.02.06
Skipped ASECS lecture in the morning.
Which is a stupid thing to do.
Coz i had to get an MC which costs me $22.30.
I'm broke!
Have yet to inform Ibu coz i used her money.

Thought the day would ended bad.
But yazid gave me a pleasant surprise.
By making all the way to Woodlands.
To pass flowers and Ferrero Roche to his 'pink princess'.
It was really sweet of him.
To make all this for his 5 Princesses.
No i wouldnt take it as a valentine's day gift.
(coz we're not allowed to).
But just a gift from a close friend.


the gift..

12.02.06
FC Squirrettes vs RP Adroits.
Shall not say more....

11.02.06
Project meeting @ Raffles with AURA.
Together with my dearest Ulfy..
Went to meet my Mister and Yazid at Lavender.

Later, went stadium waterfront.
After a lonnnnnng walk, we finally got there.
Such a beautiful place.
Too bad Ulfy is not with us. *winks*
Was so lucky to get to see the fireworks.
It was soooo nice.
I think I'm in love with fireworks now.

10.02.06
Final presentation for IEP.
One word.
Excellent.
i-love-you-AURA

soon....very soon

07.02.2006
Soon my projects are coming to an end.
Soon there won't be any more late night sleeps.
Soon there won't be any more sleep overs.
Soon i won't be waking up early-early in the morning.
Soon i won't be spending hours and hours craking my brains to write an essay.
Soon we won't be eating lunch at SIM.
Soon i can rise up late and not be guilty for being late for a 9am class.
Soon i won't have any more intensive training in the hall.
Soon i will miss the company of my 8 mean girls. (very much!!!)
And...
Soon my journey in NP will come to an end.

I want to get my projects done and get over it as soon as possible.
And I'm happy that it's going to end soon.
But at the same time, I'm feeling really low.
I will miss those days when i'm with my friends going through thick and thin together. And i'm glad we are still holding on tight to each other.
Gosh...I'm missing them already.

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05.02.2006
i love you, Mister.
very much.

Happy Anniversary to us!
you made my day beautiful.

it was a great outing.
simply perfect despite me being moody.

thank you, Mister!

ass-ignments!

23.01.06
Finals.
5th/6th placing.
Republic Poly.

NP vs RP
0-0, 0-1, 2-1.
After a long journey.
It ended with us in the 5th placing.

and....after a whole 3 years.
Of playing floorball for my school.
I made Ngee Ann proud.
Manage to score the winning goal for Wyldkatz.
But again..its not mine.
Its the team's effort.
Thank you Wydkatz.
Thank you Cock-roach.
Thank you Mister.

After the match.
Had to rush home.
Out again to Ulfy's.
Spent the night at her house.
Doing IEP.
That is my final year project, fyi.

Barely an hour of sleep.
Had to wake up early the next morn to rush to sch.

Assignments after assignments.
*sigh*

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Our third and final implementation for IEP was yesterday.

It was assessed by our advisor, Agnes.

We conducted a sharing session to share our research project with the teachers.

It turned out fine.

oo-kay.

but Agnes said we had to polish our presentation skills.

Oh yes..definitely for me!

The food was great though. *winks*

Rushed back to my place to complete another assignment!

Getting sick!

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Thank you, AURA.

You 3 made my time worthwhile..

For the whole 3 years here.

We laughed. We cried.

We had ups. We had downs.

BUT the ride has been wonderful so far.

i need u

they are a perfect couple.
they are compatible.

we are always saying this about others.
it has always been the case.

but only they know better.

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i'm tired.
i'm exhausted.

nobody knows.
i'm crying inside.

at times lyk this.
i just need u.

but u fail to be there...

iep

18-01-06
1-1.
A draw with SIM.
A tough match fought.

As mentioned by someone..
It was like a match between England and Italy.
With England as the Wyldkatz.
And Italy as SIM.

The only match this IVP.
Which have left me with a big bruise on my left thigh.
And with something bulging out on my feet.

Wellie serve me right.
For grabbing and squeezing people's *toot*
But cant help it lah...

After all the grabbing, pushing, shouting...
We made it to the next round.
Alhamdulillah.

But the day ended bad though....

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19-01-06
The whole day today was spent at Ayu's.
Working on our final lesson tommorow.
And our final implementation next thurs.

Stepped out from Ayu's with the other 3 at 11pm.
Reached the bus stop where me n annie would be taking 168 at 1125pm.
I've never had any experience waiting for a bus with so much anticipation.

Finally the bus came 10 mins later.
We were so excited upon seeing it.
Never had been so eager seeing a single deck 168.

I discovered something new today!
I saw two SBS bendy buses.
It looks funny but cute.

AURA, can we have sleep overs soon?
It will be so fun!
But not at my house again...
Ulfy, u have to join us this time ok..
Its might be the last...
hopefully nOT!
*sigh*

*Mister, I'm loving you more each day*

The birthday gift for dearie...
I made it all by myself...
And that's a reflection of him..
Not a picture of him..

Dearie, when you look at the reflection in the mirror, that's the person whom i'm deeply in love with.

fish!

Assignments are giving me hell..

Give and take.
I'm tired of just 'giving' all the time.

i just hate pessimists!

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Faris is warded.
First he got scalded by hot water.
Now the doctor is suspecting appendix.
*sigh*
i love him.

wyldkatz

Quoted from atirah's blog:

when you're down, don't just brood over it.
Instead,
pick your courage to stand up again.

Yupz i totally agree with her.
Wyldkatz,
i hope we'll stay together till the end.

There can be miracles when you believe.

Strip the fish to its bone.
Wyldkatz.
Whoosh!

bad day

A full day in sch..
1 word to sum up the day..
BAD.

We lost.
Feeling sore.
And you don't have to rub it in.

Another thing..
People, mind your own bisnez!
Its my life.
and..
Its my past.
So just leave me alone..

Wyldkatz..
i'm sorry.
yes. i am a bad leader.
i was supposed to be the one to pick u guys up.
but i couldnt even pick myself up from the fall.
yea. i forgot the high-5 thing.
i completely forgot the team.
i was too carried away with my own feelings.

my expectations were too high.
i wanted to bring the team far.
but when we stumbled, i was too weak to get up.
i needed the team's support.
but...

at times..
even the person whom u think is the strongest
can be the weakest..

She tried to keep her feelings hidden.
She tried to hold back her tears.
She tried hard.
When out of sight, she just broke down.
She said to herself, "they take me forgranted.i have emotions too."

Lets not look back anymore.
A long way to go.
Heads up now.

Strip the fish to its bone.
Wyldkatz.
Whoosh!

sweetheart

We had our first league game.
Yesterday.
Againts NTU Tempest.

I was late.
Super late.
Luckily i was with Fad n Zana.

We had new jerseys.
It was yellow.
We looked like bananas on court!

We lost the game though.

Supposed to attend NIE course preview.
After the game.
But i was lazy n tired.

Instead, me n dearie accompanied yazid to buy some stickers.
We ate at Bugis.
Did some window shopping.
At Bugis Village.

Then, we took a walk down to City Hall.
It was a long one.
But it was fun despite the rain.

We sat somewhere near padang.
And just talked.

And then home sweet home.

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Stayed home the whole day today.
Completed the gift for dearie.
Its soo nice.
Thanks ulfy (dun tell him its ur idea la k!)
heh.
Will post a pic of the gift soon...

Staying up late today.
Baking something for my dearie...
i'm such a sweetheart!!

goodbye 2005!

Finally got the time to update!
Been super busy with assignments..
They are taking a toll on me now.
My final year project (IEP) is giving me a LOT of stress.
Plus the other assignments that's piling up.

Having a presentation tomorrow.
And i'm down with fever.
*sigh*

Meanies, we'll get thru all this together aite.
I can't wait for the assignments to be over.
But it'll mean school gona be over too.
*deep in thoughts*

Got a call from ibu just now.
She told me faris was alone at home.
And he got scalded by the hot water.
While making maggi mee for himself.
I felt so so bad.
Since ibu and abah are busy at the shop,
there's no one to look after him.
He's always alone at home.
I'm feeling really bad now.
If only i was at home...

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IVP.
League.
I cant wait for it to start.
I'm having butterflies in my stomach now.
I want to score, score and score.
I want my Wyldkatz to go far.
I want my dearie to be proud of me, of us.
I want to score for my dear cock-roach!

Exactly a week more to my mister's birthday!
how?how?how?

Goodbye 2005.
Hello 2006!