last post was eons ago.

so much has happened.

i'm engaged now.

and i feel old.

and i'm getting married in may.

like oh my god, married?

it does sounds a bit crazy.

wellie, i wish i can turn back time. =)

miss my younger days.

definitely a lot more fun.

i was so carefree.

and i miss those days.

i really DO feel old now.

can i not be called madam when i marry later.

please?

so much of starting to blog again.
hah.
i couldn't even remember the password to my account.

floorball's season is over.
pinkies finishes 4th or 5th?
i don't even know.
explains how attached i am to the team.
still considering whether to stay on or leave.

started teaching already.
great bunch of kids.
simply love my p1 pupils.
just so adorable.
love the look on their faces,
when i start to get a little fierce.
heh.



|even after a year.|

its been a lonnnnng time.
i thought i would like to start blogging again.
and so i'm finally a fully trained teacher.
how time flies.
i could still recall..
talking to my poly mates.
how much i wanted to join NIE.
how much i would love to join the teaching force.
and here i am
waiting to embark on my career
as a teacher.

i am posted to Jiemin Pri Sch.
located at yishun.
i wished it was closer to home.
but well, i'm still excited.
coz it will be a new school,
meeting new people,
in a whole new environment.

ungu was such a disappointment!
they left the stage without any thanks.
audience were all shocked and we thought
it was just an interval.
they started shouting for encore.
but usherers came out and
told us that the concert is over.
very disappointing.

nonetheless,
pasha is cute.
heh.

4th week of school.
been spending most of my time alone in hall.
well i got used to it.
so i am NOT feeling lonely.

and so anwar won the election.
having a dad who is pro-anwar,
its obvious that i am too.
politics may be boring.
but malaysian politics
is so so much different from ours.
interesting how they can backstab each other.
and lengths they willing to go to bring down another leader.
someone needs to put a stop to corruption.
and hopefully anwar will do it.

anyhows,
i will be going to my first ever music concert,
with the boyfriend.
and i can't wait!

sometimes in life,
u come to a crossroad.
u stopped to think for a while.
where should i go?
u are afraid that the road u chose might
eventually be the wrong one.
u are afraid the turn u made may be regretted later in life.

but u never know what is going to happen in the future.
so u follow what your heart says.
praying and hoping that turn u made is going to be the right one.

and somehow,
the choice u made may hurt those around u.
those who were very dear to u.
they may just turn their backs on u and never look back.
but u kept telling yourself, its ok.
this is what i want. this turn is the right one for me.
and those who still stay around for u,
they are your real true friends.

and yes i came to that crossroad.
and i am praying and hoping that i've made the right choice.
and i'm thankful to know that
i do have real true friends.

you,
i am truly sorry.
you,
the person who understands me the most.
i know,
letting go was never easy.
i am sincerely sorry.
take care.

what would u do when the person u trust the most..
betrayed ur trust?
u could have asked me sincerely..
if u really want to know.
i would have told u when i'm ready.
*sigh*

been keeping myself busy.
very busy indeed.
preparing for exams.
2 papers this sem.
and i cant wait for the holidays.
and of course for ivp training to resume.

anyhows,
ask only if u think the answer will benefit u.
don't if u think u r just being nosy.

friends n girlfriends.
just thought u shuld know,
yes i am doing fine.

never cried so much in a day.
looking back, i don't know what i've done.
definitely a big mistake.
emptiness is wad i'm feeling.

attended a friend's wedding at ritz carlton.
every girl's dream wedding.
you know the fairytale wedding.
she was beautiful in her wedding dress.
and her smile told us how happy she was.

and now i'm picturing myself in my own fairytale wedding.
walking down the aisle with my beloved husband.
with a romantic song as the background music.
every single pair of eyes on us.

the 'soundtrack' for my wedding day. click plaY!

i love you till the end.
i do.

finally manage to find time to meet wati.
and we went for a movie.
ps. i love you.
been a looooong time since we did.
short outing but i enjoy the company all the same.
love u gf.

sorry jelly.
i just cant wait.
and i really dun mind watching agn.
really!
date me out jelly!

i love the feeling..
getting to meet you..
after such a long time..
coz i get excited and..
there were butterflies in me..
coz i missed you so much..
it was a great feeling..
and let me miss u more.

with your smiles and your jokes,
it always brighten up my day.
you have a unique way
to show me that i'm yours.
making fun of me has
always been your hobby.
but that's your way of showing it.
did i tell you?
your smile makes me smile too.
your laughter makes me laugh too.
thank god i found you.

so ivp has ended.

we finished 4th this year.
after the defeat against nyp.
who would have thought so when we were leading.

i didnt cry that day.
i know i played my best.
i know my team mates did their best.
so the defeat didnt affect me in any way.

i'm thankful that i've found a team.
a team so full of spirit.
the 'winning team' as described by dennis.
we'll be back next ivp!
sweetest defender? me! *winks*

ntu ivp squad 2008




|jealousy is a part of me.|
i'm sorry.

the semis ended with a defeat.
we lost to sim.
complacency?
maybe.
being the underdogs work to their advantage.
honestly, credits goes to their coach, fathi.
he bring out the best in the few 'experienced' players he has.
congrats.

hmm yep..i cried.
i wanted it badly.
really really bad.
i've never gone this far for ivp throughout my years in np.
the game ended with a draw.
so we had extra time, golden goal.
they scored during the 20+ seconds.
it was so so close!

i broke down immediately after the final whistle.
coz i know it was my fault.
i didnt step up to the shooter.
i left the court with the deepest regret ever.
thanks girls for the support.
u all are my pillar.

my impression of dennis changed yesterday.
i had always known him as the 'mean' one.
but he proved me wrong.
that phone call meant a lot.
he wanted me to stay strong for my team mates.
what touched me most was when he apologised to me.
he took all the blame himself.
to him, the defeat was his fault.
but to me, we're all a team.
no one's to blame.

i'm gona walk into the court this thurs with fire in me.
no more fear.
and i'm gona leave the court without any regrets.
coz i'm gona make sure that mistake won't repeat itself.

let's pray.

Dearie,

I’m wishing you another year

Of laughter, joy and fun,

Surprises, love and happiness,

And when your birthday’s done,

I hope you feel deep in your heart,

As your birthdays come and go,

How very much you mean to me,

More than you can know.

Happy 26th Birthday, dear!
mwahs.

i am just done watching Flight 93.
its one of the flights that has been hijacked,
on September 11.
however, it didnt succeed to hit its target,
white house or capitol building.
coz of the brave and courageous passengers and crews.

i seriously dun understand these terrorists.
they claim to be muslims,
saying they doing all these coz of Allah's will.
Does Allah teach us killings, bombing,
and ending lives of innocent pple?
definitely not.
they claim these to be jihad.
fighting for Allah, for Islam.
but i gez they only think about themselves.
oh end the war pls.

becoz of these terrorists,
muslims get looked down upon by others.
others began to fear muslims.
but pls understand that Islam does not teach all these.

and coz of them terrorists too,
my parents forbid me to go thailand.
boohoo.

school have resumed.
back to hostel.

ohs. i miss waking up late!

IVP going on.
yes i made it to the team.
and we made it to the semis.
yayness.

love is always comes in between us.

i gained 50 bucks for helping out at sentosa,
but lost almost $600 worth of phone.

its sucky.
i have only me to blame.
the careless me.

its so hard to make you understand me.
maybe what we need is a short break.
distance is sometimes a cure.

i miss him.

aku berlari.
untuk mencari ketenangan diri.

currently emotionally unstable.
it feels good when u let it all out.
really good.
wellie, just that i had a bitching session,
with one of my gf. heh.
and after all the bitchings,
we came to a conclusion.
boys are stupid. mind u not men ok.
and mother-in-laws are mean.
hah.
WE ARE THE MEAN ONES.
oohs. i forgot.
afterall i am a meanie rite.
muahaha. *evil laughter*

anyways,
when people are bz mugging for exams,
i can afford a trip to kl this weekend.
cool rite.
and i really cant wait.

ermm absence makes the heart grows fonder.
so goodbyes!
may the distance do us some good!