attended a friend's wedding at ritz carlton.
every girl's dream wedding.
you know the fairytale wedding.
she was beautiful in her wedding dress.
and her smile told us how happy she was.

and now i'm picturing myself in my own fairytale wedding.
walking down the aisle with my beloved husband.
with a romantic song as the background music.
every single pair of eyes on us.

the 'soundtrack' for my wedding day. click plaY!

i love you till the end.
i do.

finally manage to find time to meet wati.
and we went for a movie.
ps. i love you.
been a looooong time since we did.
short outing but i enjoy the company all the same.
love u gf.

sorry jelly.
i just cant wait.
and i really dun mind watching agn.
really!
date me out jelly!

i love the feeling..
getting to meet you..
after such a long time..
coz i get excited and..
there were butterflies in me..
coz i missed you so much..
it was a great feeling..
and let me miss u more.

with your smiles and your jokes,
it always brighten up my day.
you have a unique way
to show me that i'm yours.
making fun of me has
always been your hobby.
but that's your way of showing it.
did i tell you?
your smile makes me smile too.
your laughter makes me laugh too.
thank god i found you.

so ivp has ended.

we finished 4th this year.
after the defeat against nyp.
who would have thought so when we were leading.

i didnt cry that day.
i know i played my best.
i know my team mates did their best.
so the defeat didnt affect me in any way.

i'm thankful that i've found a team.
a team so full of spirit.
the 'winning team' as described by dennis.
we'll be back next ivp!
sweetest defender? me! *winks*

ntu ivp squad 2008




|jealousy is a part of me.|
i'm sorry.

the semis ended with a defeat.
we lost to sim.
complacency?
maybe.
being the underdogs work to their advantage.
honestly, credits goes to their coach, fathi.
he bring out the best in the few 'experienced' players he has.
congrats.

hmm yep..i cried.
i wanted it badly.
really really bad.
i've never gone this far for ivp throughout my years in np.
the game ended with a draw.
so we had extra time, golden goal.
they scored during the 20+ seconds.
it was so so close!

i broke down immediately after the final whistle.
coz i know it was my fault.
i didnt step up to the shooter.
i left the court with the deepest regret ever.
thanks girls for the support.
u all are my pillar.

my impression of dennis changed yesterday.
i had always known him as the 'mean' one.
but he proved me wrong.
that phone call meant a lot.
he wanted me to stay strong for my team mates.
what touched me most was when he apologised to me.
he took all the blame himself.
to him, the defeat was his fault.
but to me, we're all a team.
no one's to blame.

i'm gona walk into the court this thurs with fire in me.
no more fear.
and i'm gona leave the court without any regrets.
coz i'm gona make sure that mistake won't repeat itself.

let's pray.

Dearie,

I’m wishing you another year

Of laughter, joy and fun,

Surprises, love and happiness,

And when your birthday’s done,

I hope you feel deep in your heart,

As your birthdays come and go,

How very much you mean to me,

More than you can know.

Happy 26th Birthday, dear!
mwahs.

i am just done watching Flight 93.
its one of the flights that has been hijacked,
on September 11.
however, it didnt succeed to hit its target,
white house or capitol building.
coz of the brave and courageous passengers and crews.

i seriously dun understand these terrorists.
they claim to be muslims,
saying they doing all these coz of Allah's will.
Does Allah teach us killings, bombing,
and ending lives of innocent pple?
definitely not.
they claim these to be jihad.
fighting for Allah, for Islam.
but i gez they only think about themselves.
oh end the war pls.

becoz of these terrorists,
muslims get looked down upon by others.
others began to fear muslims.
but pls understand that Islam does not teach all these.

and coz of them terrorists too,
my parents forbid me to go thailand.
boohoo.

school have resumed.
back to hostel.

ohs. i miss waking up late!

IVP going on.
yes i made it to the team.
and we made it to the semis.
yayness.

love is always comes in between us.

i gained 50 bucks for helping out at sentosa,
but lost almost $600 worth of phone.

its sucky.
i have only me to blame.
the careless me.

its so hard to make you understand me.
maybe what we need is a short break.
distance is sometimes a cure.

i miss him.

aku berlari.
untuk mencari ketenangan diri.

currently emotionally unstable.
it feels good when u let it all out.
really good.
wellie, just that i had a bitching session,
with one of my gf. heh.
and after all the bitchings,
we came to a conclusion.
boys are stupid. mind u not men ok.
and mother-in-laws are mean.
hah.
WE ARE THE MEAN ONES.
oohs. i forgot.
afterall i am a meanie rite.
muahaha. *evil laughter*

anyways,
when people are bz mugging for exams,
i can afford a trip to kl this weekend.
cool rite.
and i really cant wait.

ermm absence makes the heart grows fonder.
so goodbyes!
may the distance do us some good!

i wore a ring yesterday.
which my cousin bought from the states.
obviously not for me.
its a unique ring which will change its colors,
depending on the personality of the person wearing it.
and when i wore it,
it changed to green.
and he said i'm an emotional person.
got to agree with that.
i am indeed an emotional person.
i can get angry, upset, sad, cry at the slightest things.
but i can get over it fast.
the next moment i can be happy,
and not even remember what i've said.
unpredictable. yes. maybe.
but an emotional person,
i believe,
need to be assured most of the time,
need to be cared for,
need to be loved.
and sentimental values,
are important to an emotional person.

sometimes humans may tend to forget.
they become neglectful.
and take things for granted.
its true that,
you'll be more appreciative of someone,
when they're gone.
we'll then feel the absence.
and only start to realise our mistake.
but its always too late.
coz you can't turn back time.
and then you'll start to regret.
and start feeling sorry.
and its just too bad.

so cherish your dear ones,
before they're gone.

cuzzie,
i wasn't ready. definitely not.
how can i not see it coming?
when truth sinks in, it felt really painful.
but dont worry. i'm happy for you.

this is the last time.
sweet memories.

assignments over.
and i cant wait to get over my exams.

i need that getaway soon, mister.

oh well.
i found out today.
that ntu is in the same group as np.
something which i fear came true.
how can i bring myself to play against them.

sometimes in life, u come to a crossroad.
you do not know where you should head to.
if u stay, u might not be happy.
if you move on, you might regret it later.
so what should you do?
listen to your heart and follow what it says.
but what if its unsure?
*sigh*

bodoh.bodoh.
my heart aches.

school is..can i say its fine?
no no.
assignments piling up.
time is running out.
tests and exams just round the corner.
and too many readings to be done.

but then again,
floorball always makes me sane.
something which i look forward to after a long day in school.

its has always been my dream to be training on ntu ground.
and to be an ntu player.
wellie, just hope that i will be an ntu player. hah.
i hate myself for saying this but i'm beginning to like his trainings.
who's he? Dennis!
*roll eyes*

anyways, happy berpuasa-ing people.
love,
pwincess.

Always tell the truth,
that way you don't have to remember what you said.

sincerity.
trust.
2 words i'll never stop seeking for.

life @ nie is not as what i thought it wuld be.
or maybe my friends here are not like me.
they are super-on!
bleaaaargh!

i wouldnt sit at the first row in class!
i'll be the laid back one at the back of the class.
i wouldnt be the one who does reading before lectures!
you'll see me reading notes only for assignments.
in short, only if i have to.

i miss my poly days.
really!
i'm the latecomer.
i'm the one eating at the back.
i'm the daydreamer.
i cant afford to be just me here!
pretence. pretence.

this feeling.
of.
insecurity.

shoo. dun bother me.

someone told me a lie.
disappointed.
very.
sorry?
u're forgiven.
but the scar won't go away.