shoo fly

shoo.
don't bother me.

*sigh*

bloods

so the meanies decided to do a bit of charity today.
instead of 8, only 5 ended up donating their blood
avneet n liana...i'm proud of u two!!

erm.
because of the fever.
i had the last 2 week or so.
the doc didnt allow me.
to donate my precious blood.

mine is AB!
its rare.
but the doc told me.
theres still virus in my blood.
even when i recovered last week.

*shoots*

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i hate amazing race!
i hate the Linzes!!

*stomachaches*

my dearie

yesterday was just perfect.
a whole day with my dear.

just walking down town.
we talked.
n we laughed.

it was simply a great day.

*lost in love*



With each passing day, our love grows stronger.
The minutes apart seem longer and longer.

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League and ivp starting very soon.
i'm getting really excited.

Wyldkatz, i have faith in us.
Hold on to each other tightly.
I think the ride will begin soon.
Pretty soon.

Cock-roach n Wyldkatz

shoes get me excited

new floorball shoes.
erm yea its too white la.
but someone said i look cute in it.
oh yah i noe..heh.
Thanks la eh amal!

new FILA shoes.
nah not the sporty2 kind.
erm those shoes ah-lians wear in secondary school.
but its brown in colour.
dark brown.
Thanks dearie.
yeap.nice.lurve it.
but i ended up getting blisters.
so much of looking sweet n pretty today.
heh..

i so hate school!
i so hate projects!
i so hate deadlines!
*screams*
arrrgh.....

i hate to be reminded of my past.
just stop reminding me of it.
please.

Strip the fish to its bones.
Wyldkatz.
Meow.

Floorball freak

Friendly against MJC on tuesday.
Amal injured her ankle before the game.
N there was no other keeper.
I knew i was the standby keeper.
But i was just not ready.
NOt ready!

It was fine for the first period.
But i hate the 2nd.
It was stupid, a really stupid goal that i let in.
i thought i wanted to kick the ball away.
Coz it touches my own player b4 it rolls to me.
But i just couldnt see the ball with the big jersey n all.
Grrrr!

Thanks ulfy.
It mite be a simple action.
But you coming up to me,
and by just giving me a tap on the shoulders,
means a lot to me.

I couldn't hold back the tears.
That was why i went out of the hall.
It mite just be a frenly but it means a lot to me.

Physical training on thursday.
Tough.
Really.
A solid 3 hour fitness training.
Tiring but i love it.
It kinds of bond all of us together.
I love you all lah Wyldkatz.

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The sight of you sets me thinking all day.
Maybe it was still that smile.
Maybe. But maybe not anymore.

moviesss

A date after school.
Movie.
Just Like Heaven.
Super-nice.
I simply love it.
A meal.
Finally.
A proper one.

I'm counting down the days.
Harry Potter, here i come!

Jalan rayer with my meanies was fun.
Taking pictures at every house is a must.
But i hate the 'going home' part.
All will leave one after another.
Then only i realised i need my mister beside me.
And yah pass me the pics quick k!

"mestinya kau cari pengganti diriku saja
karena kita sudah tak saling bicara
pastikan cerita tentang kita yang telah lalu
hanya ada dalam ingatan hatimu

maafkan aku jika kau kecewa
bintangmu bukanlah untuk diriku
jika memang semua kan jadi cerita
ku tahu kau semakin terluka"

cookies mookies

Salamz to all....

i'm tired!
after a whole day baking cookies n brownies.
ermm i'm getting tired of baking.
ibu lah..she makes me bake brownies for my future kakak-ipars!
hah..

school on monday was boring!
i find our modules this sem kinda boring..

school starts at 9 tmr.
*sigh*
i'm so not ready for school!
i wanna have my hols back!!

finally bought my kasut raya!
i love it.
thanks dearie.

aura, seems lyk we've been talkin abt marriage non-stop huh.
i wonder who will get married first!
*winks at ulfy*

wellie i'm gettin married in 2007.hah.
dream on lin......

Happy Hari Raya all.....

yellow + green = lemon tree
oh wheres my lemon tree?
heh.sorry aisah.
miss u lah.

i'm such a sweetheart

Been busy lately.
Cleaning the house.
Wiping the oh-so-many mirrors in the hse.
Its all shiny now.heh.Thanks to me!

Cleaning the dust off all my trophies.
Ermm..i wished poly would have sports' day.
It would be so fun!
I would take part in 200m, 400m n 800m.
And not forgetting the relays.
ahhh...i want sports day in poly!!

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I was being such a good girlfriend.
Ermm...no..i AM a good girlfriend.
heh.

Lemme tell u y.
Coz i baked brownies for the first time.
And its for him.

Awww..so cweet!!



All the ingredients i need for the brownies.
Not forgetting 2 eggs n salt n sugar.



Ready to bake!



While in the oven. The wait gets me anxious.




And its ready!

I've never done any baking before and so he asked me to bake him something before this raya.
Pantang dicabar kan.heh.So i took up the challenge.
I thought its gonna be tough but it was easier than i thought it would be.

Ibu said it was nice.
He said it was nice.
His mum said it was nice too.

I've never been this happy before.
*all smiles*

i'm gonna bake one more for you, dear.
since its so delicious.Heh.

peterpan rocks

erm.
thanks ulfy.
u're the best ya noe.
u noe.i noe.
*winks*

and oh ya.
thanks for sending this song too!
i'm loving it.

i love peterpan lah.
they simply rock my world.
hah.

bored.
home all day.
terawih without ibu!
i wanna go out!
yes.hopefully tomoro.
to get my raya shoes.

i'm getting bored of the net.

lost

i feel as though i'm lost.
maybe i'm too occupied with my own stuffs.
maybe i changed.
maybe they changed.

hmm..
i hope our frequency remains the same though.

meany meanies

my meanies.my strength.my everything.

Geylang trip.
With my meanies.
and him.

Its been a long time.
Since i last meet up with my girlfrens.
I miss them all!

One more outing, please!!

I'm in love with bags and shoes!
I didnt know annisha is too. only with shoes though.
Yes. I will buy that Alladin shoes!
I'm gonna settle on either brown or white.
Wellie, something sweet for someone sweet.
Hah.

Happy Birthday, my dear Mr VP.

floorball-floorball

Friendly against TP.
On a sat morning.
At TP. *soooo far*
As usual.
Overslept.
Blame it on msn.
I slept at 3+ the night before.

Met my dearie.
Took a cab down to TP.
There goes my money-money.

TP seems small.
But i like the sports complex.
Nice.

Juz 2 periods.
Ermm...i think we r cursed.
hah.
Rite Wyldkatz?

Wellie, we won.
1-0.
Err..i scored!
*yayness*

Line 1 rawks!
And Wyldkatz, winnie in my line hor.
*winks*

Headed straight home after that.
With him n aisah.

Home.Change.AND sleep after my prayers.
Had to woke after an hour.
Abah wants to break fast inJB.
yes.again.

Only the 4th day of Ramadhan.
Went to JB twice.

Prayers at a mosque in UTM.
Just about to enter the female prayer hall.
And suddenly the lights went off.
BLACKOUT!
The whole mosque was out of light.

Did maghrib in the dark.
Waited for Isyak azan which seems like forever.
Did mass Isyak prayers in the dark.
It feels nice.
I feel so close to God.
I love You, Allah.

Alhamdulillah.
Lights came back.
When we were about to start terawih.

Giant was the next stop.
Shop-Shop.
*i love*

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Pics taken during training camp. Enjoy!

spot the odd one out


Floorballers


My group during the 'caterpillar' game


Yesh.NP circle b4 sleep.


Faces of Floorballist


NP Wyldkatz. *i love them all*


During dinner. Look at my dear Mr VP beside me.


crazy catz

stone by stone

Stone by stone
Rachel Bently

I have a wall you cannot see
Because it's deep inside of me.
It blocks my heart on every side
And helps emotions there to hide.
You can't reach in,
I can't reach out,
You wonder what it's all about.

The wall I built you can't see
Results from insecurity.
Each time my tender heart was hurt
The scars within grew worse and worse.
So stone by stone,
I built a wall,
That's now so thick it will not fall.

Please understand that it's not you
Continue trying to break through.
I want so much to show myself
And love from you will really help.

So bit by bit,
Chip at my wall.
Till stone by stone it starts to fall.

I know the process will be slow
It's never easy to let go
Of hurts and failures long ingrained,
Upon one's heart from years of pain.
I'm so afraid
To let you in;
I know I might get hurt again.

I try so hard to break the wall,
But seem to get nowhere at all.
For stone upon each stone I've stacked,
And left between them not a crack.
The only way
To make it fall is imperfections in the wall.

I did the best I could to build
A perfect wall, but there are still
A few small flaws, which are the key
To breaking through the wall to me.
Please use each flaw
To cause a crack
To knock a stone off of the stack.

For just as stone by stone was laid
With every hurt and every pain,
So stone by stone the wall will break
As love replaces every ache.
Please be the one
Who cares enough
To find the flaws, no matter what.

Thank you, dear.
For being the one.
I'm sorry if you had difficulties
Trying to break through the wall.

floorball rawks

3 days training camp.
Hilarious.
Fun.
Tiring.
But, certainly i learnt alot of new things.

i so lurve the money game!
*20 cents!!*

i lurve my girls.
i lurve NP Wyldkatz.
i lurve them all.
i lurve my floorball family!

Had a little celebration for the oct babies.
Sorry there was no cake though.
Its nice to see them getting excited and all.
Especially when ira was screaming when she saw the balloons in the room.

wellie, congrats jase.the camp was a success.u made it happen, my dear mr VP.

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=/
once, its funny.
twice, still funny.
thrice, irritating.
i'm sure u wuldnt like it if i say that to u.
well, so wad with big ones?

on cloud 9

date.

movie.

lunch.

shopping. *i love*

i'm loving you more each day.

sorry.

we won.
but i didnt feel the victory.

unhappy.
upset.

sorry girls.
i lost my temper.

i am a bad leader.
i am a bad captain.

i think they made a mistake appointing me as your captain.
i know some of you are unhappy with the fact that i am the captain right from the beginning.

i am sorry.

bear with me.

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its really bothering me.
i dun lyk the way players are treating their fellow mates.
blaming the keeper everytime a goal is concede.

think.

why in the first place the ball got into the goalpost?

wheres the defenders?

wheres the midfields?

wheres the forwards?

a goal that is concede is never a keeper's fault.never.

if you cant respect your mates as players, respect them as humans.
humans deserves RESPECT from you.

KL trip

5 days in KL.
it was ooo-kay.
just okay.
heh.

why?
becoz i didnt really get to shop!
nOt fUn!

missing floorball.
missing my baby (thats my stick).
missing my friends.
missing the blue track.
missing the ball.

cant wait for training later.
frenly with YJC.
Lets kick some ass Wyldkatz.hah.

Met Syahidah.
Met Azri.
Met Annisha.
Met Nasaruddin.
Met Rasyid.
i miss going for MSS events.
that explains my presence.
actually i miss them all.

hmmm...

my birthday

birthday.
with my loved one.

you're just too sweet.
that's why i'm addicted to you.

i'm afraid i'll get diabetes ya noe.
heh.



My birthday cake


najib n me


the gift (he made it all by himself...hmmm)


another gift


him

baby aj

Dearest Aisah,
Today's entry is solely dedicated for you on your birthday.
*winkz*



Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to Aisah,
Happy Birthday to you.

Everyone should have a friend like you.
You are so much fun to be with.
And you make a perfect friend.
You crack me up with laughter.
And touch my heart with your kindness.
You have a wonderful ability.
To know when to offer advice.
And when to just remain quiet.
To sit and give me your support.
Time after time.
I've realized how fortunate I am.
In my life which includes you.
I really do believe that
Everybody should have a friend like you.
But so far it looks like
You are one of a kind!

Thank you Aisah.
Thank you for the friendship.
Thank you for everything.

P.S.: Despite everything, your captain still loves you just the way you are. Just look at the pic!

only u n me

a new beginning.
that's a promise.

learning to love you more each day.

patient.
determined.
understanding.
sweet.
that's you.

it's now..
about you,
about me,
about us,
i promise.

lurve you dearie.

a new chapter begins

dumb.
yes.
thats me.

stupid.
yes.
who else.
but me.

trying.
i am.
my best.
to hate you.

though i cant.
i have to.
to learn.
to let go of u.

bye.

the chapter ends here.
and a new one will begin soon.

dumb me!

one paper for exams.
which ended today.
its holidays.
finally.

went out with my meanies.
fun. fun. fun.
pics.pics.pics.
nothing else by the river.
thats wad the meanies always do =)

i thot the day would end just the way it started.
but i was wrong.
y muz u break it to me now?
i was not ready.
certainly not.
but.
certainly that wez the perfect bday gift ever.
thanks.

you went so far away.i dun think my hands could ever reach out to you.

i should have seen it coming.
i was fooled.
nah..i think i am dumb!
stupidest & dumbest gerl in the whole wide world.

yea.stupid me.

the wound was just about to heal.
but gez it will never stop bleeding now.

you.
take care.
i'll live, dun worry.
you are in your own world now.
i'm in mine.
dun think we'll ever cross path again.
but if we ever do.
juz promise me.
i'll get that stare.
u gave me the first time u lay your eyes on me.
bye.

-tears are falling again-

memories

I am juz done with my 2nd newsletter.
I'm still not sleepy coz i slept when i got back from the centre.
I so miss my beautiful sleep.

Without realising it, i only have one more day at the centre.
I made it to the end.Without falling.
I didnt know i was this strong.
Alhamdulillah.

I still remember complaining about quitting school when in year 2.
*winks at ulfy*
I still remember those sleepless nights getting assignments done.
I miss AURA.
I miss making those sounds with the straw in MSS and ended up missing prayers.
I miss doing assignments at canteen 2 and laugh till we cried when she fell.
*winks at annisha*
I miss taking the big green lorry to school with all our learning centre's materials.
*winks at all my meanies*

Can you believe it?
I'm graduating next april.
Insya-Allah.
But if i had a choice, i wouldnt want to...

I will miss waking up late and skipping lectures.
I will miss getting those warning letters.
I will miss picnic-king in class.
I will miss taking cabs to school.
I will miss running up to class to hand in assignments.
I will miss SIM.
I will miss borrowing books and buying bubble tea at the library.
I will miss getting all nervous when walkin through the sensor at library.
I will miss looking at boys. heh.
I will miss running at the tracks.
I will miss carrying the goalposts for floorball trainings...
and the list goes on.

I will miss everything.
Most of all, i will miss the places which holds so much memories of us.

Hmmm...thinking about all these gets me down. I always spent time thinking about my friendship.Will it last? Is it strong enough to last? Or would it just be gone when everyone goes on their separate ways?Just like what happen to my sec sch mates.
I will miss you, my meanies.

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Floorball's the way.
All the way, Floorball.

Friendly with SP tmr at 10am.
Pesta Sukan - Squirettes vs UWC
Tuesday, 30/08, 7pm.

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I have been doing alot of shopping lately.
I am becoming so like ibu.
We'll go crazy at the sight of shoes and bags.
Told ibu: Ibu, nanti girl kerja, hari2 cari kasut dengan beg.
Like mother, Like daughter.
This was what i bought for myself...

a $35 charles & keith shoes


a $19.90 sandals @ Metro *winks at ulfy*


a $25+ adidas handbag (which i wanted for so long)

your presence still lingers

2 am.
and i'm still awake.

Thinking about you.
About us.

him: can feel some part of me is still there

Well, i think so too.

But i'm sorry.

I thought u have left.
Leaving with that piece of me still safe with u.

smileys

Alhamdulillah.
I passed my assessment by my field supervisor.
Nice lady.Very chatty.
She said i had warm and positive voice. She could see that the children were very attached and comfortable with me. *winks*
I'm so so happy it's over.
one more assessment by my mentor.
talking about her, i n vic were so surprised by her friendliness the other day.
wad's got into her?
phew!
now i can really have all my heart in floorball.
niwaes lets just let the pics do the talking.

At padang...

the view from the top


annie, me n najib


the lovely fireworks




meanies
Singapore Fireworks Festival

how i wish my pwince charming would propose to me
under those lovely fireworks..*dreamy eyes*




najib,faris and me

The ides of March

ulfy, aisah and me


crazee floorballists




sue and yazid


me and najib

Teacher Lin @ work





my math learning centre


cute rite??? my favorite Chi Ya.


my favorite kiddie, Oiao Hui.

Happy Birthday Ulfy!

Happy Birthday to You!
Happy Birthday to You!
Happy Birthday dear Ulfy,
Happy Birthday to You!

Hey babe, you have exactly a year left to enjoy your teenage life.
Hee. So old liao eh. Me only 18 still.Oh yea!

Anyways, time flies. Without even realising it, i've known you for about 2 years +.
wellie, we've gone through alot together.alot indeed.
but no matter what happen,i still feel the same about u.
Luving u as always.

Thanx ulfy.Thanx for the friendship.Thanx for everything.

iT sUcKs

i might be mean.
i might be selfish.
but its for the team.
its for your team.
our team.

put yourself in my shoes.
being a captain.
u think its easy?
u think its for fame?
try it.

it sucks.
when u dont wanna cooperate.
i dun ask for much.
all i ask for is...
your support.

i dun care now.

-some people juz dont noe how to appreciate your presence and effort-

endurance

Been super busy lately.
mon-skewl
tues-skewl+floorball
wed to fri- childcare (thurs-floorball)
sat-my only rest day
sun-madrasah+wac his floorball match
apart from all these, i still need to prepare my lesson plans n materials for my 6 lessons and 2 learning corners.
*shakes head*
i'm so looking forward to 2nd september when all ends!
and to think i no longer need to go for attachment at childcare next semester!!

-trying hard to get my freaking mentor out of my mind-

missing my old childcare badly...

endure.endure.

loads to be done.

byez.

~it is still you i think about every night~

I want you to stay, friends, til the end.

Friends.
I'm sorry.
If I've left you.
In the dark for all these times.

I thought I was strong.
Strong enough to go through this alone.
But.
Certainly not.

I still need you.
All of you.
To stand by me.

Yes.
No one is perfect.
I should not have asked for more.
Coz when I met you, my friends.
I could'nt ask for anyone better.

I love you all.
AURA, I miss you all.
Really do.

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i hate it.

when you think he's the bad guy.

he's not.

certainly not.

u only know the other side of the story.

n please dun pretend u noe everything.

lost the trust in u.

u blew it all away.

A second too late

I turned back.
Turned back to look at him.
To look back at that someone.
That someone who touched my heart.

But.
I was too late.
A second too late.

He moved on.
Moving on further and further.
Further away from me.


the tears keep falling n falling without an end.
wouldnt want to say goodbye.
afraid that i mite lose u forever.

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Menunggumu - Chrisye feat Peterpan

Di dalam sebuah cinta
Terdapat bahasa
Yang mengalun indah
Mengisi jiwa
Merindukan kisah
Kita berdua
Yang tak pernah bisa
Akan terlupa

Bila rindu ini masih milikmu
Kuhadirkan sebuah tanya untukmu
Harus berapa lama aku menunggumu
Aku menunggumu

Di dalam masa indah
Saat bersamamu
Yang tak pernah bisa
Akan terlupa
Pandangan matanya

Menghancurkan jiwa
Dengan segenap cinta
Aku bertanya

Aku menunggumu

Dalam hati ku menunggu
Dalam hati ku menunggu
Aku..
Dalam lelah ku menunggu
Dalam lelah ku menunggu
Aku..
Masih menunggu

Bila rindu ini masih milikmu
Kuhadirkan sebuah...
Harus berapa lama, harus berapa lama
Aku menunggumu, aku menunggumu...

That Someone Special

I thank God.
For giving me a gift.
A gift of knowing someone.
Someone so understanding.
Someone so patient.
Someone so loving.
Someone so caring.
and.
Someone who loves me just the way I am.

~you are no longer that someone who were there at the right moment,the right place~

Jealousy

Today.
I just realised it today.
Only today.
That I'm still not over you.
I thought I was.
But truth is I'm not.

J-E-A-L-O-U-S-Y

Maybe i am stupid.Dumb too.
To let you go.
To cry over it when it's all over.
I'm sorry.

But please.
Please.
Please do acknowledge me.
Please do still acknowledge me as someone who have touched your heart before.

I might be selfish.
Yes i am.
I don't want you to ever let go of the past.
But i can't stop you.

Don't let go of those memories.
Cherish it.Treasure it.
Keep it safely in your heart.
I promise you that I will.

-my tears won't stop falling-

Happy Birthday!

To: You

Happy 19th Birthday!

I miss you on your birthday,
Not only for your smile,
But for the piece of me that's gone,
Left within your care.

friends come n go

hurt.

i juz realised u were not the kind of fren i used to think u were.

now.
i can only afford to look at u from far.
i can only afford to smile at u without u looking at me.
this was not the way i want it to be.
certainly not.

hmmm.
got back from werk.
ibu,abah fetched me.
i asked them to.
y?
bcoz i wez scared to go back alone.
wellie, hear me out.
the other day i wez werking, there wez this guy who said this 'roti prata man' wanted to get to noe me.i juz smiled at him.this guy claimed tat the 'roti prata man' was his poly fren.n his name is jamil.yes.he's an indian muslim.n he's in his twenties i gez.
so today the same man came to my store.he said the 'roti-prata man' would talk to me soon.
*bites lip*
n he did.
he came to my store at around 10+.
i hide in the office wen he came.
so at eleven, as i walked out of the store to go home i saw the 'roti prata man' waiting at the corner.
*shakes head*
i quickly ran back into the store n told my colleagues.
they were all laughing at me.
i was freakins scared!!!
decided to call ibu at home but abg ngah said ibu wasnt at home.
feeling desperate i asked abg ngah to fetch me.
n he said ok after i told him y.
while i wez hiding in my store waiting for abg ngah, the 'roti prata man' came into my store.
shitz.
i went into the store room straight away.
called ibu on her handphone.
told her wad happen.
i was lucky she was already on her way home.
so tats how i got them to fetch me.
i got ibu to fetch me from the store room itself coz the 'roti prata man' was still in the store waiting.
he told my colleague tat he nids to talk to me to settle sumting.
lyk huh??
when we didnt even talk b4 this.
wen ibu n abah came in, he straight away went out of the store.
phew!
after wad happened abah told me to call everytime i'm comin back from werk in future.
gotta noe tat this 'roti prata man' is the owner of the roti-prata shop son.
hmmm...*scratch head*

you.
yes you.
yes.
i do love you.
missing ya too.
very much.

she was lucky.
lucky to have him.
no doubt she IS lucky.
but the love she had went away.
though she still do love him.
theres nothing much she could do.
she just have to pray.
pray hard tat they will meet again later in lyf.

the hols this time is filled with lots of activities.
lurve it.
first was bbq.
then cca fiesta.
then dragon boat.
then ubin trip.
all with my fellow floorballers.
fun.fun.fun.

ubin trip wez great despite the rain.
there were around 31 of us.
am i rite?
i think so.
well hafiz u owe us one story!
wads wif the covered well n the swing??
floorballers, did u see the muslim graveyard there at ubin juz beside the cycle track??
i didnt!
but thanks to hafiz i did.heh.
kae wanna noe y we reached the starting point much later than the rest?
becoz we went back all the way just to see the well.
it wez kinda far.
and poor shu ann had to climb the hill on foot n push the bike again.
hehe.
cute.cute.

satisfaction felt when i managed to cycle uphill with my bike.
hehe.
i didnt push it up.
take a look at my muscles now.
wOw.

we took the last boat from spore to ubin.
why?
becoz we dun want to wait for the rest.
but took the first boat back to spore.
why?
becoz we dun want to rush for the toilets.
the toilet at changi wez stinky.
n there wez no lights.
but its ok.
coz all of us were sticky n muddy.
wen all smells nice n clean.
we headed for simpang bedok.
yum.yum.
i had horfun for my dinner.

after dinner.
we played the zig-zag game.
a game introduced by the ECH beauties.
heh.
we shuldnt have.
coz yazid makes it worse this time.
theres a forfeit.
3 losers have to finish a drink.
bandong+soya sauce+my horfun soup+yazid's lozenges(yucks)+chilli+lime
ewwww.
n the lucky peeps were Najib,Rhafiz n Farhan.

Floorball's the way.
All the way, Floorball.

love you.
love him.
love you.
love him.
love you.
love him.

i'm sorry.
truly am.
for wad i've done to u.
trust me.
the love i had for u.
was real.

i'm no longer living my dreams in reality.

juz got home.
from work.
my partner didnt turn up.
my manager accompany me til 8pm.
watched amazing race.
woo.
i like it.
i really wanted the black couple to win.
it was really close.
n they won.
yessa!

i'm not in talking terms with my dad.
i'm merajoking.
urgh!
the feeling definitely sucks.
my first time.
who's not?
he wants me to quit floorball.
i never will.
NEVER.
he said i'm too 'bebas'.
i noe i noe.
if not werk, i will have floorball.
n he didnt like it.
coz its combined training.
with the boys.
wadeva!
*sigh*

You.
are.
a.
freaking.
psycho.
oh well.
the truth has set me free.
i'm juz glad the truth didnt hurt at all.
my friends.
i lurve you.
You.
nice try b*&^%!!
You.
know something.
wadeva You did..
it only makes US grow stronger.
*Destroy me if you want, but i wont allow You to destroy my beloved team*
some things are getting into me.
i dun lyk seeing it happening.
maybe i'm juz too conservative.
do not spoil ur good image.
for goodness sake.
you are wearing a tudung.
got it?

pWincEsS is bAck!

woohoo..
i noe i noe..
you all have been missing me badly..
asking me to update..
awww...
so touched!
hee..
hols wez fun.
werk.
floorball.
friends.
werk.
floorball.
friends.
if without werk i think it wuld even be much much better.
but i need the $$$
NP Floorball had bbq last friday.
Its meant for our graduates.
we had lots of fun,
Thanks to the programmers..atirah n shu ann..(n who else ah?)
i lurve the 'battle' thingy...FUN!!
n its been ages since i went into the sea at ECP.
it was too tempting.
i think i wez carried or was i pushed by my juniors??
then najib had to push me in the water n wet my tudung..
i felt so heavy! coz i wez in my jeans...
i cant wait for the ubin trip!!
Evryone pray that i can go k..
pray that my parents wuld allow me k..
coz my presence wuld make a great difference..
hehe...

dunbotheraskforme

great.
when she most needed ur support.
this is wad she gets.
everyone's pointing their fingers at her.
why?
why must it be that way?
She didn't want it to end.
but it wasn't her choice.
it was theirs.
just leave her alone and don't bother ask her anything.
she's not even sure herself.

-end-

it's the beginning of the end...
...
...
...
...
-end-
the
tears
wont
go
away
i'm
sorry
too
i
know
the
wound
in
my
heart
wont
stop
bleeding

Love me,Love me not?

The match today was great.
Though we lost.
10-1.
But it was a really good scoreline because the game was against Moosettez.
And to think that our keeper is not a keeper.
Well she's a player.
This was her first time becoming one.
Moosettez is the number one team in Division 1.
That explains why i'm happy with the result.

Anyway i'm in a sappy mood now.
Not sure why.
Thinking so much about friends and relationship lately.
~Segala pertemuan akan berakhir dengan perpisahan walaupun tanpa kerelaan~

stucked in boredom

i'm stucked at home on a weekend.
bored.
attempting to complete my 5page child development essay.
received another warning letter.
for AST.shitz.
n to think that i skipped another lecture yesterday.
DEAD.
received one for EC the other time.
*sigh*
i wanna go out!
but i'm not even sure where i wanna go n with who.
all my frenz are busy.either with their assessment or work.
i'm bored.bored.bored.bored.
somebody.help me.get me out of this boredom.
k lin.
stop it.

time of the year

DPIP assignment done.
Now stucked with Child Development essay.
Darn.
I have to switch on my crappiness to get it done.
autism.autism.autism.autism.autism.
ok.
i'm bored.
niwaes i worked from 6-11pm juz now with JinLong.
eewww..how i 'enjoy' working with him.
JinLong is chi guy who is so darn irritating.people say he lyks me.
ewww..pukes.
aniwaes yah we were collecting the hello kitty magnets.i got 20 of it today.
at first i thot it wez so ah-lian-ish to collect all these hello kitty stuffs.but they r cute.
nice.nice.
counting the days to freedom.
04-03-05 to 29-03-05
25 more days to freedom.
that makes 20 more days to our first paper.
oh noooooo...PANIC!!!
2 weeks and 6 days.
damn.
n to think i dun even noe what to study.
sheeeeshhhh......
aura~we'll go thru this together aite.hold on girls.
dearie~am missing those times.
aisah n sue~luv ya both.

skewl n assignments driving me nUts

yiihaaaa!!
My FP Mathematics assessment is over!
Its over!
wOohoo...
i can finally sleep n eat like i used to-tats wad zuzarte said..
those who doesnt know who's zuzarte..
wellie she's my FP lecturer and she was the one who assessed me..
u might think its good to get my own lecturer BUT she's strict..
very strict!
i wez scared lyk hell~!
but hack..its over now!
aniwae i muz tell all about this..
i duno why but the kids were extremely notorious on that day..
they were being extremely difficult with me..
n they wouldnt cooperate with me..
ooh seriously they were testing my patience..
there's this boy who said 'celaka' to me thrice!!
why?
bcoz i wuldnt let him go to the math learning corner coz he needs to finish up his worksheet..
i juz snapped at him and said..
"if u're goin to say it once again,i'm goin to report to teacher baida(their form teacher)"...
luckily tat made him shut up!
oh yah i passed my assessment..
well but zuzarte said it wasnt good..wadeva~
its realli good tat i passed..
phew!one burden off my shoulders.
aniwae i still cant celebrate yet..theres lyk tonnes of assignments tat are waiting to be done..

1. DPIP group assignment-newsletter,activity kit n 10pg proposal
2. CDEV individual essay writing on autism
3. SYC pair work-50% of the module..freak!
4. EC-sumthin like a mini speech..in class assignment
5. AST mini speech-promoting a product in 2.5 mins to m.5 mins..in class assignmt

i think tats about it..oh maybe theres more..not quite sure..
i realli cant wait to get over everything..
but theres one thing i'm going to miss most..
the floorball matches during the weekends..
well its the only thing tat drives me through the whole one week of school..
we are almost finish with the league n theres lyk 3 or 4 more matches to go..
awww..i'm sooo gonna miss the games..
i'm sooo gonna miss Squirrettes despite the few 'unhappiness' thats been going on..
i'm gonna miss everything..

*its been on mind since i duno when.i dun feel i'm in charge animore.u self appointed urself n u make every decision.how fair is tat when its supposed to be me doing everything.u had urs then.now its my tym to shine.well not juz u.its both of u.i have to make sum changes.i had enuf listening to u goin on n on about ur feelings but u never spared a thought for others.i'm sure am very happy if u will leave.both of u.i appreciate ur help very much.but i had enuf.i've seen everythin now.juz leave.becoz thats wad u always wanted.bye.*