pretty long absence.
holidays coming to an end.
oh how i dread it.

apac was great.
new friends.
new experience.
iff seminar wasnt bad either.
we got to sleep over at the sports school.
which was really a cool thing.
hee. never imagined myself setting foot in it.

wellie..let the pics do the talking..


me, najib, ross

me and mister

our lil celebration..haha

hardworkin people...

us and the aussie refferees, nick & paul.

me & scott o'brien..isnt he hot? muahaha

us and the aussies

cant get enuff of ourselves

us & the Indians

wyldkatz, i may not be with you
but my spirit will always be there with u.
make me proud, girls.
i was so nervous for 'my' girls just now.
(yes ulfy, aisah they are still mine!)
i felt i was actually going to play for them.
how i wish!

i wish you knew.
how my heart long for the old times.
i was blind.
i was selfish.
i was spoiled by ur love.
so near yet so far.
thats how i feel.
we seem to be like in 2 different boats.
sailing away from each other.
don't let me drift away.
coz i truly love you.

today, it was settled.

i had to meet my VP.

apparently this James boy,

the one i was talking about in my previous entry.

he took malay in pri 1. he was in another sch then.

he was absent for 6 months frm sch after the 1st sem.

and joined our sch later when he was in p2.

he was having problems with the previous sch.

he has been failing his malay since p1.

and now mum is blaming me.

how fair is that?

thing is the boy has already given up.

he told his form teacher that he doesnt like malay.

so how much can i help?

i dont mind going the extra mile.

but cant the mum be a bit more appreciative of what we had done for him.

we sacrificed our time to have personal remedial with him.

what more does she want?

i'm trying my best to take everything positively.

its definitely a learning experience for me.

a quote to live by,

"i touch the future. i teach"

-Christa McAuliffe

and so i've come to a conclusion,

when there is love, there is pain.

i wonder how my friends are doing..

those who are working..

those who are schooling..

and not forgettin one who is abroad.

i so miss school!

i so miss the company!

and i so miss the laughter that we shared...

so when are we going for raya outing?

any plans meanies....fellow joyriders?

i'm looking forward to the weekends.

and yessa i survived the week.

yey! what day is tomorrow?

FRIDAY! and friday means a day more to Saturday.

weeee~!

after calculating the marks,

i have 3 failures in my p4.

i have no idea what's happenin to them.

coz the p4 paper is so so easy to score!

have yet to get back my p3 papers from my colleagues.

talking about p3, i have this chi boy in my class.

yes. he's taking malay.

and i gave him remedial evry tues and thurs.

ADHD boy. always in his own world in class.

and mum doesnt believe us.

instead she blames the teachers.

he has written nothing for his SA2 compo!

when i already asked him to at least write the helping words down.

he wrote nothing..nothing!

and best thing...the mum wrote a letter to MOE,

asking them what kind of teachers does Sembawang has.

she just refuse to believe that her son has no interest in studies.

and now i have to meet my VP to talk about him.

such a pain in the ass lah this people. so geram!

i was informed which level i'll be teaching next yr.

will be sticking to the present time-table.

that means taking the p5 and p6 em3.

but good news is that i'm taking the good p3 and p4.

i'm just hoping and praying that Rafi boy will b in another class.

sorry for the long absence.
busy and tired with the working life.
and now with the raya visiting.
hardly have any personal time for myself.

children taking their final year exams.
kinda scared for them.
but i'm actually proud that many of my students..
well not all..actually memorised what i asked them to
for their karangan..
i feel oh-so-proud of them..
here's what i asked them to memorise by hard.
its for the opening of the compo.
"Cuaca pada hari itu sungguh cerah.
Bunyi burung yang berkicau-kicauan sangat merdu.
Angin yang meniup sepoi-sepoi bahasa menyamankan lagi
suasana pada hari itu. Perasaan saya sungguh gembira."
bagus tak? bagus tak?
heh.

i promised to upload pics of my new bed. so here goes..

see that 'little princess' pillow. my fav for now.
a birthday gift from my fellow joyriders.


my new curtains. nice kann....

cant help it but to feel jealous.

no matter whether u're my fren or not,

i'll still feel jealous.

so get away!

surfing net in school.
something which i rarely do.
its boring when you have nothing much to do.
but i'll cherish every minute of it.
i like it when the staff room is almost empty.
you can do whatever you want and have nothing to worry about.

shopped at ikea last nyte.
bought myself a day bed.
just wanted to have my bedroom changed.
will post a pic up when it is delivered to me.

well now that i'm working, must i give duit rayer?
sungguh menyedihkan!
i would rather be studying and receiving money..
rather than giving out money.
*sigh*

a week more to go...

friday marks the end of my long week.

and i'm always in high spirit when its coming to an end.

but lately my mood hasnt been good.

pmS? nah..its the kids.

they are driving me nuts.

whenever i have lessons with my p3,

my mood will automatically change.

they are still young..yes..

still look like babies..yes..

but becoz of one boy, lessons with them are hell.

a boy with an attitude, a big bully, and a very corrupted mind.

imagine a 9 yr old saying, 'jubur', 'fuck', 'chibai', 'kiss my ass'.

he's a real monyet lah.

having to deal with him is one thing, my p5 em3 are gettin out of control too.

i cried on friday. becoz i was just too angry.

too too angry!

i was asking this boy to sit down, and he shouted back at me,

"saya punyer pasal ah cikgu!"

he raised his voice at me! not once. but many times.

that trigger evrything.

i blew up.

i started shouting at them like some mad woman on the loose.

better not mess with me kids.

i'm no longer that sweet teacher you can toy around with.

looking forward to the new week.

becoz its psle marking day. and that means sch holiday.

yessa!

i just feel like posting an entry about myself.

i just looked through the papers which my fellow floorballers wrote.

the one they had to write about yazid, jason n myself.

yes i still keep all those papers.

because at least i know how i'm progressing as a person.

i may look tough on the outside.

but only few knows that i'm actually soft on the inside.

first impression of me is always negative.

others find me arrogant.

hmmm...

i guess i'm strong-headed too.

and i can't admit defeat.

i always wonder if i had carried out my responsibilities as a leader.

i wonder if i've brought up and nurtured my wyldkatz well..

honestly it was hard for me to deal with the criticisms i get from some.

i acted strong because i had to.

eventhough some said i deserved the post, i question myself every now n then.

even now, when its over.

i blame myself for making such decisions.

have i made a mistake?

i wonder...

i'm striving to change into a more better person

be patient.

do not give up when you still have something to give

me n mister visited our dearest yazid in ocs on sunday.

together with his family in that big old trajet.

cheerful as always. gettting thinner n thinner.

later become kudut like me.

speaking of kudut..i weigh 46kg now.

in all i lost 4kg. thats bad. really bad.

no idea why i lost weight that much.

because i've been eating a lot...

ibu have been asking me to pay a visit to the doc.

but being the stubborn me, i just refused to.

so back to ocs.

its a very big camp. very big mind you..

and i just learnt that..

they have to study and sit for exams.

no wonder its called a school.

and there are ladies..cool huh...

let the pics do the talking..

mister, yaz & me in his bunk

the very big dining hall

the nice view from the HQ

the tank yazid drove..hah..kiddin

dearest yazid

me & mister

gift & letters from cambodia

thank you dear ones for always having me in mind.

we'll be back.

soon.

16th september.
we had a joyride cum birthday celebration.
at changi beach.
it was so nicely planned.

and the surprise was a really nice one.

the birthday surprise was after maghrib.

now i noe y ulf dragged me to the toilet even i when i refused to.

so that they can get me away.

when we came back, ulf asked for the telekong.

i just told her its inside the tent.

but yazid insist that i find it for her.

so i went to the tent, and found myself surrounded by all of them.

i was scared to open the tent at first.

when i did, they threw star glitters at me and sang a birthday song.

thank you, lovelies.

i had a blasssssssssssst!

september babies

me with the oh-so-nice cake

joyriders

aj, me & mister

yesterday was aj's birthday.
so we threw her a surprise at her house.
thanks to her bestfriend and gang.

we were instructed to be at her house at 745pm.
apparently we were a bit late.
after all the walking from al-iman mosque.
when we (the girls) finally reached aj's void deck,
we saw yazid and hermie coming towards us.
they said they saw aj at the carpark.
and we went, oh shit.....
so...we ran all the way to her house.
like some elephants on the run.
luckily her house was on the 2nd level.
thank god!

shuld hav videoed the look on aj's sis and dad.
muahaha. we muz have been really loud.
we hid in her parents' room.

we hid in her room.

lying on the floor waiting for the birthday girl in darkness.

well i nearly fell asleep coz you took so long!
as she opened the door to her room,
and lights were switched on, we went...
"SURPRISE!"
aj was screaming and jumping lyk some monkey on the loose.
hee. and she juz threw her bag on the floor.
then...her bf and friends came out with the cake..
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to Aisah,
Happy Birthday to you!

it was nice to see you happy.

it was nice to see you enjoying your 21st birthday.

we love you, baby.

mwahs.

so its payday.
yayness.
and i got myself a long skirt from Metro today.
heh.
just cant resist it coz its 70% off.
$79.90 and now selling for $16.90.
its was kinda love at first sight.
saw it. grab it. bought it.
never had i bought something without doing much thinking.
just wanted to treat myself after a long day at work.

feeling kind of scared now.
because the VP saw me threatening a p5 kid.
with that long wooden ruler of mine.
'samurai sword' as described by them. heh.
the thing is i dun noe if she saw me hit him with it.
i mean it wasnt really a hard hit. just a tap on his back.
die lar.die lar.
she always caught me at the wrong time.
always walking past the wrong class.
the em3s.
*sigh*

on the other hand, i'm happy coz
my birthday's coming soon!
yay!
got my prezzy ready oready? hehe.
3 days to go. weeeee~!
what will you surprise me with this time round?

my body's aching all over.

blame me for not attendin training for so long.

skills getting rusty. my shots weren't accurate.

*sigh*

kinda disappointing.

but i'm proud of myself for running 4 rounds around the blue track.

and i was fasting that thursday.

good ehh? heh.

so we went out yesterday.

after so long.

looking forward to next outing.

as always. can never get enough of you.

wishing that everyday would be a bright day.

i cried

because i miss you.

i cried

because i need you.

i cried

because i love you.

i will not let go till you tell me to.

so near yet so far.

i'm broken when i'm lonesome

and i don't feel right when you're gone away.

so its september.

and like aj, i'm happy.

why?

because my birthday is on 15th September.

Friday, 15th September.

heh.

remember that people...

on the other hand, feeling quite low though.

i miss you, mister.

like really really miss you.

*sigh*

so yesterday, we had a family gathering.

yes aj is part of us.

we went to wac this malay bangsawan at victoria theatre.

not so hard to understand la.

hah.i made abah sit next to me just in case me n aisah get lost.

after which we went for our supper. no actually dinner la.

poor aj..had to wait so long for her food. dah lah puasa kan.

then headed to ECP. that was about 2 in the morning.

plan was to hang around for a while then back home.

but ended up staying there till about 11am.

aj, jangan serik eh. heh. my family very the last minute one.

we dont make plans. on the go kind of people la gitu..

here i stand alone

with this weight upon my heart

and it will not go away

in my head I keep on looking back

right back to the start

wondering what it was that made you change

well I tried

but I had to draw the line

mister, i love you.

had to go Sembawang park yesterday.

with p6 em3 students.

but it was raining so heavily. so it was cancelled.

*yayness*

but..i had to rot with them in the AVA room

and so i missed the concert.

only managed to see the last item.

=(

when school ended, we rushed for the toilet.

to get changed for the teachers' day hi-tea.

i had to rush to do my prayers.

i had to rush back to the staff room

to take my hp and purse.

so i was practically running the whole school.

then of all days, a parent wanted to meet me.

just to ask whether his son have got back his ca2 paper.

*shakes head*

when i finally got up the bus, there was no seat left!

so me and a few other teachers had to wait for another bus.

that made us late for the hi-tea.

an hour late.

*sigh*

bad day.bad day.

but food was great. company was great.

the view from the 69th floor from Swissotel was breathtaking.

at least a part of my day was nice.

after the hi-tea, headed to ibu's shop.

to kill time.

coz i had a date with jelly at night.

accompany her shopped at Mango.

then had drinks at Mc Cafe.

after that headed for our mocie at Lido.

we watched break-up.

aj, i totally agree with u.

i almost doze off. heh. shuld hav listened to u lah.

its so so boring lah can!

and..

home sweet home.

maafkan aku bila meragukan ketulusan hatimu.

maafkan aku bila meragukan kejujuran cintamu.

maafkan aku kerana ku sungguh terluka.

kembalilah jika kau sudah bersedia.

i hate mondays.because its just the start to a whole new week.

well at least i have thursday and friday to look forward to.

i love teaching.but the kids that i'm teaching..

they drained me out of my energy.

and i so dread going to the p6 EM3 class.

i will always drag myself slowly up to their classroom.

so that i can at least waste some time.

bad teacher. bad teacher. i noe. but wdh.

i'll be out of school on thursday.going to sembawang park.

with the p6 EM3 class.*shakes head*

haiz. can i get an MC on that day?

i'm feeling low because i'll be missin the concert.

and how can i get prezzies when i'm out of sch?

muahaha.

ulfy, date me out ok.

i need company.

i noe u need me too.

heh.

One look

One smile

One touch

One embrace

One kiss

One love

Two people

Two minds

Two souls

Two destinies

One road

One journey

One ending

Together.

mwahs.

dahulu

ku cukup pasti

tentang dirimu

kini

ku bingung

apa mahumu

tapi yang ku pasti

tak mungkin akukan berundur

kerna

kaulah satu satunya

yang teristimewa

Kerana terlalu mengasihi

Akhirnya terluka aku sendiri

just let me have your hands in mine.

and let me hold on to it tightly.

missing you badly.

drifting away.

Rossa - Tegar

Tergoda aku untuk berfikir

Dia yang tercinta

Mengapa telah lama tak nampak

Dirimu di sini

Jangan kan ingin ku tersenyum

Tak ada daya

Ku ingin selalu bersamamu

Kini ku resah

Diriku lemah tanpamu

Gapai semua jemariku

Rangkul aku dalam bahagiamu

Ku ingin bersama berdua

Selamanya

Jika ku buka mata ini

Ku ingin selalu ada dirimu

Dalam kelemahan hati ini

Bersamamu

Aku tegar

hate it when i want so much to meet you,

but you can't.

hate it when we are both too busy

to make time.

i just hate it when work comes in between.

i don't want to love you, but it's something i love to do.

tell me how.

PSLE oral for this 2 days.

i'm so so free.

so so nice.

but i still have to go to school lah.

today's mornin was spent slacking in the canteen.

with 2 other colleagues.

we had to take care of students' handphones.

we can't help it but keep on talking abt kids these days.

they are so pampered.

so 'advance'.

unlike us when we were in primary schools.

things are so so different now.

and i so hate modern parents.

2 HFMD cases in my school.

and now we have to do checks every mornin.

so leceh lah can.

i have to be in sch by 645am tmr.

just to do checks on students.

grrrr....

this is so stupid.

i get so worked up watchin spore idol today.

how can the 3 good singers be in the same group?!

and their group is not the safe one.

mathilda.hady.jonathan.

i thought they will at least make it to the top 3.

so sad.

and its so sickening that joakim is still in!

people are voting because of popularity and not talent.

can't get enough of you.

work is creating a distance.

between you and me.

the more i learn, the more i love.

the more my heart can't get enough.

that's when i love you.

no matter what.

went to tampines earlier today.
to watch his match.

pretence.pretence.

12.08.06
birthday cum farewell party at liana's.
food was great. coz there was my fav potato salad.
heh.

Happy 20th Birthday, babe!
you are going to be missed.
by me.
love ya lots.
mwahs.


this was us back in year 2?
memories will never be forgotten.

after that headed off to clementi.
to meet my mister.
made our way to city hall.
to meet up with aisah, yaz, jelly and adi.
for the fireworks display.
the bridge that connected esplanade n merlion was so so packed.
we couldnt even make our way to the centre to meet jelly.
it was great though. even when i felt like a sardine in a can.

ulfy, i'm sorry if this entry came a bit too late.
Happy 20th Birthday, darling.


cant deny it but we both look sweet lah kan..
muahaha...

nites all.

nites mister.

coping much better with work.

teaching doesnt sound fun anymore when u have to work with 'gondol' kids.

heh.

was so happy to hear that the teacher is coming back.

BUT.

he wont be taking his classes straight away.

he will be doing my LSP!!

coz he's still unstable to climb the stairs.

grrr...

i cant wait for the p6 em3 to finish their exams.

then...i will be freed!

i wont be visiting them again.

so so great!

the p3 are the other class which is drivin me nuts!

so many gondols..

one with durian hair..

one with dyed hair..

and they just cant stop talking.

and they are so so damn rude lah can...

but i love my p4 students.

angels.

everyday during the week, i look forward to a wonderful weekend.

and when weekends are finally here, i just don't want to start another week.

can i just stop the time from moving?

i'm addicted.

to you.

love ya mister.

down with fever.

still doing relief for that sick teacher.

kids are making me crazy.

and i'm losing the sweetness in my voice.

muahaha.

cikgu amilin rock lah.

seeing you smiling makes me want to smile too.

forgot that i was supposed to be angry.

you.

i miss you.

immature love says: " i love you because i need you."

mature love says: " i need you because i love you."

enough.

period.

i dont like mean people.

if you want people to understand you,

why don't you try to understand others too?

where'd you go?

i miss you so

seems like its been forever

that you've been gone

please come back home

She said somedays I feel like shit

Somedays I wanna quit

and just be normal for a bit

I don't understand why youhave to always be gone

I get along but your trips always feel so long

And I find myself trying to stay by the phone

Because your voice always helps to not feel so alone

But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call

And when I pick up I don't have much to say,

so I want you to know it's a little fucked up that

I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating

Telling you that I've had it with you and your career

Me and the rest of the family here singing

again why don't you try to appreciate me while i'm still around?

second day at work at Sembawang Primary.

very tiring!

for the first three days, i have to do observation.

of different classes in all levels.

today while i was half awake at the back of the class (because its in the mornin la!),

had a surprise visit from the clerk.

well it was bad news for me.

i had to relief for another malay teacher.

and the bad news is that he happens to take all the rotten apples.

primary 3 wasnt so bad.

primary 5 & 6 was a killer.

because they are the em3 students.

they just wont listen to you.

especially the boys.

kinda looking forward to monday.

will finally start teaching.

will be doing the learning support program.

which is for the weaker students.

oh well..just wish me luck.

at least it'll be with the younger kids.

mwahs.

missing you mister.

firstly, i already got my posting.

will be teaching in Sembawang Primary School.

and lucky me..

i'm teaching the lower primary,

in the afternoon session.

lucky coz at least i get more sleep.

heh.

had to attend a teachers preparatory course earlier on.

been such a long time since i last had a lecture.

at least the company that i had was great.

nice bunch of people.

makes me recall my poly days.

how we used to be so noisy and giggly.

and guess who i met during the course?

"girlie!"

muahaha...

aura, u shuld noe who.

its her. yes ambiga.

remember how we used to hate her saying it..

Banquet just opened in Causeway Point.

that is pretty good news to me.

i've been longing to have one near my home.

and its so big...

best!

another long day tomorrow..

nites all.

*triple hugs for my mister*

"oh dale, here i come!"

everyday,

i look forward to..

talking to you..

at night.

but,

most of the time,

you'll be too tired to talk.

"its ok. at least i get to hear his voice."

i thought i was strong.

but no.

i cried because i miss you too much.

again appreciate me while i'm still here.

i wrote your name in the sky,

but the wind blew it away.

i wrote your name in the sand,

but the waves washed it away.

i wrote your name in my heart,

and forever it will stay.

feels great that the comp is ok now.

behave well ok.

woke up this mornin when i received a call from ulfy.

and..

found out that Samphors has left cpcdo.

she's this girl whom we are close to at the orphanage.

shocking news early in the morning.

apparently she left to work.

*sigh*

and no one bothered to inform us!

-----------------

some people just never change.

-----------------

i wish the rollercoaster will stop now that we are on top.

comp is down.

that explains my absence in msn.

i'm now at an internet cafe near the shop.

had to do something for abah.

and myself.

convocation is over.

it was nice though to be on stage.

with all eyes on you.

didnt expect the stage to be that long la.

the three meals with the other two was great.

annie n ulfy.

spend the whole day at Raffles.

eating.

lunch at Fig & Olive.

tea break at Deli.

dinner at BK.

we became porkies for a day.

muahaha.

but i had a great time.

dinner & Dance on 18th.

enjoyed the food.

especially the nachos and the cheese.

but didnt really enjoy the show.

with that really lame magic show.

by this guy named Shawn or was it Shaun.

wadeva the name is.

cant wait to collect my letters from cambodia.

hmm.

i'll walk into that big green gate soon.

Happy 20th Birthday, Jelly.

love you.

mwahs.

Missing you.

didn't go to the shop today.

a whole day lazing at home.

now i'm thankful that i at least have the shop to tend to.

kinda bored staying at home.

at least the chores do keep me busy.

can't help but thinking.

about you.

i have stopped hoping.

i have stopped asking.

if one day you find yourself lost, take my hand.

i'll show you the way back to my heart.

the evening was spent with aura.

had a wonderful time.

and yes we did what we were supposed to do.

eat and talk.

me being me.

cant help it when i see the word SALE.

i bought myself a Neckermann sandals.

and its pink.

upset though when i couldnt get what i actually wanted.

thank you aura.

masih ada kasih dari sinar matamu.

Alhamdulillah.

i'm offered contract teaching in a primary sch.

wished i had gotten the direct entry to NIE.

but syukur Alhamdulillah.

my prayers were answered.

so ulf, don't worry.

i won't be going over to Msia that soon.

you don't need to miss me lah k.

rahsia di hati tak siapa yang tahu.

the laughter that i share is actually fake.

the smiles are all fake too.

i'll wait.

but don't be too late.

2 entries in one day.

yupz.

i'm bored.

and feeling pretty low.

was i waiting for that call?

no, i'm not.

yes, maybe i am.

i used to look forward to weekends.

but now i dread it.

it used to be spent with u.

but now its like once in a blue moon?

take care, dear one.

time will decide.

sometimes.

your presence will be appreciated.

when you are no longer there.

if only i can run away.

from everything.

from everyone.

being in love.

is like being on a rollercoaster.

with no ending.

and i'm holding on tightly.

but.

be quick.

mister.

training's never the same without my crazy girls.

Ulf.Aisah.

the two who always makes training more fun-ner.

felt so alone.

felt so out of place.

maybe that explains that refreshing run.

6 rounds around the track after so so long.

people must think i'm crazy.

but i actually miss the campus run.

really do.

i miss those time when i still feel i belong.

to that family i've found.

me: girl nak apply to UM tau.

ibu: trylah tunggu nie.

UM, Universiti Malaya.

i want to be a teacher, an educator.

but why UM?

i hope to specialise in Malay Lang.

Just like abah.

its kinda hard to enter nie.

and truthfully i'm not strong enough to accept rejections.

bus ride was great.

wished you could share it with me though.

i'm not here for you only when you are happy.

that smile always makes me want to smile too.

you're still the one

No longer a student.

A diploma at hand.

But still unemployed.

Wished i have taken up the job.

But I chose my parents over it.

I feel kinda useless.

Feel like i'm just wasting my time.

Ambitions?

Yes i have an ambition.

I want to go far.

In my studies.

So that my family will be proud of me.

Menginkari kata-kata ibu bapa adalah anak yang derhaka.

appreciate me while i'm still here.

don't cry for me when i'm gone.

you.

take care.

don't worry.

you're still my only one.

Johor outing with my mister on sat.

Started well.

Suddenly my monthly stomach cramp just got worse.

One of those really bad ones.

I was sweating and my face was turning pale.

Bad.Bad.Really bad.

After eating the pills and using the axe oil bought by my dear Mister.

It slowly got better.

And the outing went as planned.

Alhamdulillah.

Thanks Mister for standing strong when i'm down.

Missing my Cambo kids badly.

Looking thru pics while listening to songs.

Again, i wished Cambodia was just next door.

They planning a trip in Sept.

But ulf wont be able to make it.

Doubt the others can too.

December, pls come soon.

you taught me the true meaning of 'share'.

share if you care.

and i miss that stare you gave me.

which made my knees go weak.

Have not been for training for quite some time.

and i miss them.

my wild wyldkatz.

and i go...

aisah lima posen.

*with those hand actions*

muahaha.

seeing those smiley faces just made my day.

floorball makes my world go round.

weeee~.

But you made my life worthwhile.

Stay and make it complete.

"your father give this kind of impression like you don't mess with my daughter."

watch what you say, dear friend.
he's my father.
the one who gave life to me.

A whole day out with Jelly yesterday.
Headed to Fareast Plaza for a meal.
At Cahaya.
Had hotplace rice seafood. As always.
I was too hungry to even care how hot the food is.
Finished mine amazingly fast.
Heh. No i think Jelly eat very slow lah.
Then Jelly shopped while I window-shopped.
We made our way to Cineleisure after maghrib prayers.
Watched Eight Below which was scheduled at 915pm.
A very touching show which brought me close to tears.
And home sweet home.

Mister is back.
In one piece.
Where's my prezzies?!

Ever heard of someone receiving her birthday gift 4 months in advance?
Nope? Wellie..I just got mine! From Abah and Ibu.
Heh. I was the one who asked for it.
I got them to buy me a Casio watch. Love it the first time I saw it.



The CCA award records are finally updated.
I'm awarded Gold Award for my CCA. Alhamdulillah.
And yah..congrats AURA!
I'm so proud of all of us.

Sue, I miss hugging you at night.
Ulfy, I miss those late nights.
Room mates, I miss the human pyramid.
And..I miss Love House.

I wonder how it would be like if you were gone for two weeks.
Or what more, three years?
I'll go crazy.
Come back soon.

i'm an orange

Your true color is Orange!

What's Your True Color?
Brought to you by Tickle

come back soon

Waving goodbye to him while i'm on this side and he's on another was kinda sad.

Now its my turn waving goodbye to him with this heavy feeling inside me.
But I guess its the same when I was at the other side waving to the rest that day.
My eyes were all watery.

Feeling low.
He's on the other side of the world.
While I'm here.
Trying to get through him.
But failed to do so.
Autoroam still not activated.
Trying to give him that 3+5 missed calls.
But I can't.
*sigh*

Happy Anniversary, Mister!

our lil anniversary celebration.

the oh-so-fake smile which made

me want to smile too. haha.

1:47am
Dialed ~dearie~.
Ringtone!
After the third missed call, i heard yazid's voice. Not my mister's.
Cancelled the call.
Called again.
Again yazid's voice.
And so i said hello...
Talked to my Mister.
It was nice to hear from him.
The call which made my day.
Now i can sleep soundly. Hmmmmm...
Lalala...
Counting down the days.

may day

02.05.06
Met my dear Jelly (Ayu) earlier today.
It was so nice to see her after so long.
So bubbly and cheerful as always.
I miss you.
I miss Aura.
An outing soon, please!

Got the keychains from Cambodia.
Got a letter too.
From Chantha.
So sweet of you dear.


I'm missing them.
Like really really missing them.
Nice to know that someone did dreamt of me.
hmmmm....

HAPPY belated 21st BIRTHDAY, Annisha!
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, Yazid!

01.05.06
Happy Labour Day all!
The day was great.
Why? Because it was a day full of shopping with my mister.
We had fun eventhough it was raining and we were rushing against time.
I won't forget how we ran in the rain carrying those big red plastic bags.
Just to avoid the rain splashed by big vehicles on the highway above us.

the thought of you being away on our anniversary is making me low
take care while you're there
will miss you mister
very much

30.04.06
Movie: 16 Blocks
Venue: Cathay CP
Time: 11.40pm

22.04.06
Picnic with fellow YEP-ians.
One word.
F-U-N.

i'll just let the pics do the talking


vi-vie enjoying her pack of ruffles. yum-yum.


Ah-Hong enjoying the chicken wing i fried


the sweet cinderella enjoying the sea breeze

Prince Weiwei trying to get the best pic of our scandal.


Me & Vi-vie


Just look at yussy (2nd from the left).
Is she jumping or is she flying? hee.


Fellow YEP-ians

mister, where are you?

My last weekend was spent at Pulau Mechan.
One of the Riau islands, a part of Indonesia.
Pure fun.
Swimming is always on the agenda everyday.

Sorry joyriders for my absence.
I wished I was with all of you too.
But then again, family always comes first.
I'm looking forward to the next one though.
Hopefully there will be another one.
The frame is nice. Very sweet of the two of you.

"The singtel mobile customer that you have reached is not available. Your number will be sent via sms to the customer. Good bye."
mister, where are you? where have you been? pls don't keep me waiting. I'm so so worried now.


~i.miss.aura.~

let down

utter disappointment.

and

i miss

my wild-wyldkatz

cambodia oh cambodia

Love House

I survived in Cambodia.
I survived the rocks on the wall too.
heh.

Rockclimbing was fun.
It was even more great when its with the YEP-ians.

Dinner with my fellow YEP-ians at Seoul Garden on thursday.
Food was super-nice...hehe..
and the guy in orange sweater was super-good looking..
*winkz*

Teacher at the orphanage replied my mail.
It so nice to hear from them.
I'm missing Love House....

I miss my Handsome...
"You lazy...No No..YOU lazy.."

i want my Cambodia!

2 days after we touched down at Changi Airport.
Like Ulfy, i'm still in the midst of adjusting my life here.
As a busy Singaporean moving in a very fast pace.

I got najib, yazid and aisah to join me at BK as soon as the group was dispersed.
I was craving for the Turkey Bacon Burger.
After which najib sent me to Ibu's shop.

Thank you dear.
Thank you Yazid.
Thank you Aisah. a very nice surprise you gave us.
Thank you for sending and welcoming us back.

I miss the children a lot.
Like A LOT.
I miss my lil Hong who refused to let go of me on the last day.
I miss my Samphors who is appears strong but very fragile.
I miss my Handsome boy.
I miss my Mysterious twin who gave me an inspriration.
I miss my cheeky Sosna.
I miss my lil Mey Mey.
I miss my emo-Chanthy.
I miss my cute Pechko.
I miss all of them....
*sigh*

Anyone wants to join me on another trip there?
My plan is to save as much money as I can and pay them a visit before 2010; which is 4 years from now.
*Ulfy, start saving ok. heh. you know i know.

YEP-ians, i miss you guys too.
so LOOking forward to Monday.
Till then,
Take care.

Missing Cambodia

I am back.
Safely.
But not in one piece.
Coz i've left a big part of me there.
With the children.

The 14 days was over.
I wanted more.
However, we have to come back to reality.
The 14 days was great.
Extremely great.

Missing the children.Missing their laughter.
Missing their smiles.Missing the big green gate.
Missing the che-kais.Missing everything about Love House.

I'll come back soon, children. Insya-Allah.

my heart cries everytime i listen to the song
Top of the world - The Carpenters

Such a feelings coming over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream

Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen

I'm on the top of the world looking down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
It's the love that I've found eversince you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's telling me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasing sense of happiness for me

There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here

12.03.06
Thank you Mister.
Pizza was great.
You were great.
Everything was great.
Wished the day was longer.
Missing you.

11.03.06
The day which marks my last game for the league.
Will be missing two games.
Coz i'll be in another part of the earth. hah.
Despite the lack of sleep, find it amazing that i could still play just now.
(the only sleep i had was at changi airport canteen after lunch with yaz n najib..which was merely half an hour)

I'm sorry though. For not being me just now.
It started out well. It ended badly.
Was just pissed with something.
Wellie, Good Luck Fellow Squirrettes.

09.03.06/10.03.06
Thank you for the chalet, NP Floorball.
I had a really wonderful time.
Time pass so quickly.
Again i wish the day would be longer.

Looking back at my journey in NP Floorball,
I feel so fortunate to find a family in each of my fellow floorballers.
I'll miss each and everyone of you.
I've learnt alot too.
Leading was never easy. However, thank you all. I made it to the end.
Thank you, NPFB.
Thank you, Wyldkatz.
Memories will stay etched in my mind.

Joyride was at night.
We had loads of fun.
Started out with a supper at Changi Village.
The bapoks were so damn pretty n sexy lor.
Jealous aku...ahaha..
I can still remember one wearing a see through skirt which is oh-so-short with a white g-string.
ewwww.....

Then, we sent ira to her place.
it was 2+ in the morning by then.
Three of us (me, ayu, ulfy) insisted that we sent her up to the 10th floor.
Waited till she got in her house before we went back down.
Something unexplainable happened after that.
hah. Longest lift ride as stated by Ulfy in her blog.
(By the way, ulfy, it didnt stop on the 9th but 8th.)
Lift went down as per normal. But stopped on the 8th floor.
Door opened. No one.
And ulf went....army, army, bang, bang (imitating the gun action)
I told the other 2 tat maybe i accidentally pressed the button.
So i pressed the close button as i was nearest to it. with ayu beside me n ulfy on the opposite side.
Door closed. Went down. Stopped on the 7th floor.
Door opened. Again no one.
i sensed something's wrong by then. just didnt say anithing.
And ulfy went army, army, bang, bang..(again imitating the gun action)..
quickly pressed the close button.
Door closed. Lift moved. Skipped 6th.
Stopped at level 5. Ayu was hiding behind me then not wanting to look at the door.
Door opened. No one.
By then, ulfy stopped her army, army, bang, bang. n went silent.
Quickly pressed the close button. But the lift just didnt move.
Panicked. Pressed the level 1 button. n lucky for us, it moved.
phew!
Again it stopped at level 4.
Was really scared mannnn...
Already forming images in my mind. Never know who's waiting at the door.
Door opened. No one.
Lin: (stumbling and mumbling words) call.call someone. call them.
Me quickly pressed the close button. Lift moved.
Ulfy: Ok. (took out phone and called yazid)
Ayu: (silent)
Ulfy: (sue answered the phone) eh sue. pls get someone to wait for us at level 1. something happened. pls.
Stopped again at Level 3 and 2.
Same thing happened.
However, there was indeed someone at Level 2.
Ulfy: eh got.got someone.
Lin/Ayu: (Panicked) who??
Ulfy: There at the door.
Yes. there was someone. But not that 'thing'. Lucky sia.
Was just a man at his door, opening the gate to his flat.
Door closed. N moved. We were all waiting infront of the door trying to be the first to get out of the lift.
But no one was waiting for us at level 1. call urself a friend? hah.
We ran to the carpark. But no trajet waiting.
haiyoh...
started moving around to spot the car.
Then we finally see the car.
Once in the car. we told them what happened.
Found out that they actually wanted to scare us by parking at another place.
So the mean lor. ohhh such loyal friends i have...hee.
After that we had problems finding our way out of the carpark.
Funny. its like sumthing didnt want us to go back.
spooooooooooooky.

Yazid drove us to see the airplanes.
Changi airport is so damn nice at night. or maybe morning.
The stars were so pretty too.
Lucky us to get to see the airplane took off.
Very the nice.

Next stop was tanjong rhu.
love the brigde.
love the lightings.
love the scenery.

got back to the chalet around 5. did my isyak.
n played twister with sue, aisah n ulfy.
ayu surrendered. she went to sleep.
we were making a hell of noise.
n disturbing others in their sleep.
sowie hor.
twister was fun.
and i'm the winner.
hehe....

Thank you joyriders.
For the laughter and fun.
i Love the company.

will miss all of u badly.
looking forward to the next ride.
till then, take care.
miss me while i'm at cambodia.

Mister, i love you.
you miss me too.....ok...
*muacks*

05.03.06
A whole day slacking at home.
*bored*

04.03.06
FC Squirrettes vs Moosettez
0 - 11

1st period : 0-2
2nd period: 0-0
3rd period: 0-9

We lost. Expected. Like duRh!
But hey i was proud of us. of my girls.
Despite being in a losing game, we never gave up.
And to think we managed to hold them back during the 2nd period.
Love you all, dear Squirrettes.

03.03.06
My Mister and me went for a play at Tampines which Sue was acting in.
Erm..truthfully..i didnt expect the play to be that good.
Congrats Shaiful.
Congrats Sue. You were great, babe.

02.03.06
Our own potluck gathering at Irliana's.
Had loads of fun.
and loads of food. *yummy*

Saw II was cool.
hah.
Girls being girls.
We were screaming our hearts out.
And covering our faces with cushions.

Next movie was 'A Walk To Remember'.
It was such a touching show.

hmmm...
when will we be meeting again, meanies?

then..now

26.02.06

Whatever people think of us..
I still feel Squirrettes n Wyldkatz are the best team I've been in.
We're a family.
Not a team with some stuck up, arrogant players.


then... and... now...

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25.02.06

Thank you Mister.
Every moment spent is a moment I treasure.
"When will it be our turn to fly to Switzerland?"
*deep thoughts*

|triple hugs for you dearie|

surprise.

Surprise call from Perdaus.
*smiles*

Time flies when you're enjoying it.
I want more of today!
Thanks girls for the time spent.

More swimming sessions.
More night-movie sessions.
More n more of everything.
I loike~!

its not the quantity but the quality.

Badly missing my Mister.
Absence makes the heart grows fonder..
Quite true huh..

missing my dearie

School has ended.
I have graduated.
I've finally come to the end of the journey.
My journey in Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

It has been a roller coaster ride for me.
Gained some souls whom I can call them friends.
Even lose some along the way.

Relationships that I've built with people has taught me many things.
Some friends stay when you need them.
But some will flee.

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Can't believe that i'm a student-no-more. *boohoo*
Hopefully the application I've sent for ntu is successful.
With the little As, many Bs + Cs, i doubt so.
But yazid told me to be optimistic.
So yah..I'll keep trying if it doesnt get through.
Hopefully they are attracted with my achievements in Floorball.

I'm missing my Mister.
Badly.
The last time we met was on Monday.
During traning at the CC.
But I still miss him like alot!
We've not been spending quality time together.
At all times to be called up for reservice..
*sigh*
miss you.love you.

13.02.06
Skipped ASECS lecture in the morning.
Which is a stupid thing to do.
Coz i had to get an MC which costs me $22.30.
I'm broke!
Have yet to inform Ibu coz i used her money.

Thought the day would ended bad.
But yazid gave me a pleasant surprise.
By making all the way to Woodlands.
To pass flowers and Ferrero Roche to his 'pink princess'.
It was really sweet of him.
To make all this for his 5 Princesses.
No i wouldnt take it as a valentine's day gift.
(coz we're not allowed to).
But just a gift from a close friend.


the gift..

12.02.06
FC Squirrettes vs RP Adroits.
Shall not say more....

11.02.06
Project meeting @ Raffles with AURA.
Together with my dearest Ulfy..
Went to meet my Mister and Yazid at Lavender.

Later, went stadium waterfront.
After a lonnnnnng walk, we finally got there.
Such a beautiful place.
Too bad Ulfy is not with us. *winks*
Was so lucky to get to see the fireworks.
It was soooo nice.
I think I'm in love with fireworks now.

10.02.06
Final presentation for IEP.
One word.
Excellent.
i-love-you-AURA

soon....very soon

07.02.2006
Soon my projects are coming to an end.
Soon there won't be any more late night sleeps.
Soon there won't be any more sleep overs.
Soon i won't be waking up early-early in the morning.
Soon i won't be spending hours and hours craking my brains to write an essay.
Soon we won't be eating lunch at SIM.
Soon i can rise up late and not be guilty for being late for a 9am class.
Soon i won't have any more intensive training in the hall.
Soon i will miss the company of my 8 mean girls. (very much!!!)
And...
Soon my journey in NP will come to an end.

I want to get my projects done and get over it as soon as possible.
And I'm happy that it's going to end soon.
But at the same time, I'm feeling really low.
I will miss those days when i'm with my friends going through thick and thin together. And i'm glad we are still holding on tight to each other.
Gosh...I'm missing them already.

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05.02.2006
i love you, Mister.
very much.

Happy Anniversary to us!
you made my day beautiful.

it was a great outing.
simply perfect despite me being moody.

thank you, Mister!