i gained 50 bucks for helping out at sentosa,
but lost almost $600 worth of phone.

its sucky.
i have only me to blame.
the careless me.

its so hard to make you understand me.
maybe what we need is a short break.
distance is sometimes a cure.

i miss him.

aku berlari.
untuk mencari ketenangan diri.

currently emotionally unstable.
it feels good when u let it all out.
really good.
wellie, just that i had a bitching session,
with one of my gf. heh.
and after all the bitchings,
we came to a conclusion.
boys are stupid. mind u not men ok.
and mother-in-laws are mean.
hah.
WE ARE THE MEAN ONES.
oohs. i forgot.
afterall i am a meanie rite.
muahaha. *evil laughter*

anyways,
when people are bz mugging for exams,
i can afford a trip to kl this weekend.
cool rite.
and i really cant wait.

ermm absence makes the heart grows fonder.
so goodbyes!
may the distance do us some good!

i wore a ring yesterday.
which my cousin bought from the states.
obviously not for me.
its a unique ring which will change its colors,
depending on the personality of the person wearing it.
and when i wore it,
it changed to green.
and he said i'm an emotional person.
got to agree with that.
i am indeed an emotional person.
i can get angry, upset, sad, cry at the slightest things.
but i can get over it fast.
the next moment i can be happy,
and not even remember what i've said.
unpredictable. yes. maybe.
but an emotional person,
i believe,
need to be assured most of the time,
need to be cared for,
need to be loved.
and sentimental values,
are important to an emotional person.

sometimes humans may tend to forget.
they become neglectful.
and take things for granted.
its true that,
you'll be more appreciative of someone,
when they're gone.
we'll then feel the absence.
and only start to realise our mistake.
but its always too late.
coz you can't turn back time.
and then you'll start to regret.
and start feeling sorry.
and its just too bad.

so cherish your dear ones,
before they're gone.

cuzzie,
i wasn't ready. definitely not.
how can i not see it coming?
when truth sinks in, it felt really painful.
but dont worry. i'm happy for you.

this is the last time.
sweet memories.

assignments over.
and i cant wait to get over my exams.

i need that getaway soon, mister.

oh well.
i found out today.
that ntu is in the same group as np.
something which i fear came true.
how can i bring myself to play against them.

sometimes in life, u come to a crossroad.
you do not know where you should head to.
if u stay, u might not be happy.
if you move on, you might regret it later.
so what should you do?
listen to your heart and follow what it says.
but what if its unsure?
*sigh*

bodoh.bodoh.
my heart aches.

school is..can i say its fine?
no no.
assignments piling up.
time is running out.
tests and exams just round the corner.
and too many readings to be done.

but then again,
floorball always makes me sane.
something which i look forward to after a long day in school.

its has always been my dream to be training on ntu ground.
and to be an ntu player.
wellie, just hope that i will be an ntu player. hah.
i hate myself for saying this but i'm beginning to like his trainings.
who's he? Dennis!
*roll eyes*

anyways, happy berpuasa-ing people.
love,
pwincess.

Always tell the truth,
that way you don't have to remember what you said.

sincerity.
trust.
2 words i'll never stop seeking for.

life @ nie is not as what i thought it wuld be.
or maybe my friends here are not like me.
they are super-on!
bleaaaargh!

i wouldnt sit at the first row in class!
i'll be the laid back one at the back of the class.
i wouldnt be the one who does reading before lectures!
you'll see me reading notes only for assignments.
in short, only if i have to.

i miss my poly days.
really!
i'm the latecomer.
i'm the one eating at the back.
i'm the daydreamer.
i cant afford to be just me here!
pretence. pretence.

this feeling.
of.
insecurity.

shoo. dun bother me.

someone told me a lie.
disappointed.
very.
sorry?
u're forgiven.
but the scar won't go away.

so i'm a school GIRL once more.
ohh isnt that great?
i so wanted to join nie.ntu.
and so my dream came true.
ayu, remember us discussing abt joinin nie?
and here i am with u. pursuing our dreams to b a teacher.

leaving in hostel now.
we call it hall.
a new sch.
a new environment.
a whole lot of new friends too.

do come and pay me a visit at my hall.
hehe.
and ntufloorball, here i come.

and oh..did i mention?
i have no classes on friday.
so so nice.

ulfy,
happy 21st birthday babe.
like i said, a year added, a year older.
080808 is over. but..
someone will sure find the key to ur heart.
hehe. *winks*

and everyone,
happy holidays!

Hikmah Solat

Solat dapat melapangkan rezeki,

terkawalnya kesihatan,

dapat menolak sebarang gangguan,

meneguhkan hati,

menghilangkan rasa malas,

mencerahkan wajah,

menggembirakan jiwa,

melapangkan dada,

menerangkan hati,

memperolehi keberkatan,

mensyukuri nikmat,

menjauhkan syaitan,

mendekatkan diri kepada Allah.

Solat juga mempunyai pengaruh ajaib

dalam memelihara kesihatan jasmani dan rohani,

juga mempunyai pengaruh ajaib untuk menolak

sebarang kejahatan dunia.

Rahsianya?

Solat merupakan alat penghubung hamba

secara terus kepada Allah.

Dengan solat, maka terbukalah pintu-pintu

kebaikan dari Allah swt.

a short update of what i did over the weekend.

attended my cousin's wedding function.

which was held at aloha changi cottage.

everything was so nicely planned out.

wedding of the year i shuld say.

pictures will say it all.

had a bad start in sch this term.

i dun like it when pple boss me around.

unless u're really my boss la rite.

since i'm leaving pretty soon for nie,

theres another teacher taking over me already.

and she's been ordering me around

like i'm her maid.

getting me to go to classes,

just so she can take her own sweet time up.

and asking me to leave anytime she wants.

wait. theres more.

she actually got me to carry out her own duties.

how fair is that?

hmph!

i've talked to my subject head about it.

just letting him know what has been going on.

and yes. i'm holding on.

and counting down to my last day.

24th july. i cant wait!

my greatest fear...

is waking up to find out you're no longer here.

i heart you.

Yazid's comms parade was super-duper cool.
it was my first time witnessing such thing.
the way they march,
the way they turn,
the sounds of the marching,
it was awesome!

and i was so proud,
to find out that my fri end,
was the commander of his contingent.
which happens to be yazid's contingent.
way to go, boy!

this was what we resort to when we get too bored.
hah.
blame it on yazid lah!
we had to wait for him while he's having his 6 course dinner.

last stop, the crazy us.
=)

i really miss my poly days.

looking thru all the pics we took,

i just cant help smiling to myself.

my 8 meanies,

i wish we could all go back to sch again.

nvm all those late nite sleeps.

nvm all those big lame projects.

nvm all those lil squabbles we had.

i still love you girls to bits.

now amoi is back,

we have to have an outing soon.

just the 8 of us!

counting the days.

to our KL trip.

till then, take care meanies.

mwahs.

me most fav pic of us!

holidays are boring!
this is indeed me.
when its sch term,
i crave for holidays.
when holidays are here,
i'm bored.

i'm contemplating whether or not to take the hostel in ntu.
i want it because i want the experience.
i thought it sounds like fun.
heh.
another thing is, i wuld want to try out for floorball.
cca means ending school late at night.
form already filled up.
its a matter of sending it back to them.

syahidah, congrats to ur bf.
its really nice to know that..
someone from the malay community excels in their studies.

counting down the hours.
miss you.

the weekend trip to tioman was great.
snorkelling was fun.
i like it when i get to swim with the fishes.

not forgetting the company too.
they were great.
me and wati actually made new friends.

we extended our stay for a day more.
becoz it was really fun.
and so we culd go back with our new found friends.
heh. free trip home. *winks*

they are actually made up of 4 malay families from spore.
great people.
i really look forward to have another trip like this.
anyone? hehe.

welcome back irliana.
welcome back mister.
and it's the 5th.
*winks*

sch term 2 ends yesterday.
feeling both happy and sad.
both at the same time.
happy coz i noe i'll have a great holiday.
with overseas trips and whatnot.
sad becoz i'll miss my kids.
esp my p3 babies.
they always brighten up my days.

when sch starts next term,
i will no longer be teaching them.
instead i'll only be helping the teacher replacing me.
they were sad with the news.
its always hard when u have grown attached to them.

while i was out for learning journey yesterday,
my colleague relief my p3 class.
she made them make farewell cards for me.
which i have not read yet.
becoz i will cry!

i'll be missing you too.
yes you.

05.05.07

a simple but yet memorable day.
you're simply the best.

Thank you for all these times.
Thank you for all your patience.
Thank you for all your love.
Thank you for making me special.
I love you.

You're truly a gift from up above.
I thank God for the beautiful gift he gave me.

Happy Anniversary, Mister!

freedom writers was great.
great movie.
great company.
i want more!

and so i feel so motivated to teach after watching the movie.
i'm gona get the book and dvd.
well i gez in teaching line, u just need constant motivation.
especially when you are teaching the lower end classes.

this week is packed with teaching my kids oral.
it gets boring when you keep on repeating the same thing.
but i'm worried for them.

tell me what's wrong with the name Danish.
apparently, this old teacher (heh pardon me!) vett my p3 paper 2.
and she got me to change the name Danish to SALIM becoz its negative?
how nice...
when i looked it up to find the meaning,
it means intelligent...
so is intelligent a negative thing?
funny pple lah!

missing you and your company, mister.

something for me to ponder on..

and definitely to learn from..

watch your thoughts, they become words.
watch your words, they become actions.
watch your actions, they become habits.
watch your habits, they become character.
watch your character, they become destiny.

is persistence a strength or a weakness?

too many things left unsaid.
i can't pretend anymore.

sfl 2007 division 1 has come to an end.

fc squirrettes manage to escape relegation.

what i would say,

few new faces with a much better performance this season.

end of div 1 marks the start of div 2 soon.

can't wait to see my mister in action!

will miss my fellow squirrettes alOt!

one person can make you the most happiest girl.

one person can make you cry like the world has ended.

that one person can also make you scream with anger.

well, i'm confused!

cemburu itu datang dengan sendirinya.

mungkin cemburu tandanya sayang.

tetapi cemburu juga boleh menyakitkan.

jika si dia orangnya terlalu peramah.

jika si dia orangnya terlalu suka bergurau.

pasti kadangkala cemburu itu akan bertandang di hati.

recent JB trip with the bf left a big regret.

lesson learnt: never bring a clutch bag to JB!

*sigh*

on another note, i'm busy..

indulging myself in sinful dunkin donuts!

yummy!

mister, thank you.

every moment counts. *winks*

so pics sums up the first day of boredom in sch.

we had lotsa fun taking pics!

and we have yet another day to go through.

wellie, we have my little kodak to keep us company.

the boy who made my days colourful.

you're my only reason to smile!

mwahs.

match against LMFC today.

also known as moosettez.

though it was a lost,

guess we played quite well,
compared to the past seasons against them.

goal achieved!

i irritate jill quek.

muahaha.

she lost her grip just coz i charged her with my stick.

look who doesnt have the sportsmanship.

quack.quack.quack.

she said i'm destructive to their game play.

and i played dirty.

wellie isnt it good?

pwincess is so proud of herself today!

yahoogroups for the joyriders is up.

please upload pics and more pics!

and mister,

thank you for making my days colourful!

wellie good news have to be shared with all right?

so its a second win for squirrettes this season.

who says squirrettes can't?

we cAn!

heh.

first win was against ntu storm. 3-1

second win was against RP. 3-1

as described by fahmi and aishah i'm mean milin.

hmm..so being the mean one,

i made many RP players angry and rather frustrated.

it was sucha nice feeling!

haha. *mean laughter*

whenever i'm near any of them,

i will use my stick to hit their shin or wherever i feel like.

heh. mind that i dont have the ball with me.

so beware!

school having ca1 now.

no more lessons but had to do invigilations.

am so looking forward to the one week break.

did i mention that some kids call me n my 2 other colleagues,

powerpuff girls!

hah. and i'm buttercup coz i'm loUd.

there are others who call us charlie angels too.

hehe. 3 of us are lyk triplets as described by our OM.

buttercup loves her p-a-p-a-n!

happy anniversary, mister!

movie date with a girlfriend.

dreamgirls.

rating: 7/10

great movie but too much singing.

hah. got a bit fed up about it.

coz even when they are talking, they sing to each other.

a bit stupid lah.

this friend of mine is just like me.

we go crazy about shoes.

when shoe freaks get together..hmmm..

haha.

we will shop till we drop.

getting low on cash now.

blame my shopping.

and blame the shopping centres to be having sale at the end of the mth.

bah.

the girlfriend.

on another note, old gfs i miss you loads.

aura, meanies..

take care ulfy. *smiles*

mister, i love you.

the nicest thing to hear from your student when you're angry,

"cikgu, saya minta maaf."

hmmm..it touches me.

i got very angry with a student for being rude.

therefore i got him to pack his belongings and got him out of the class.

i didnt know where he went to after that.

Minutes after the bell rang for the next class,

he came in.

He held out his hand to salam me

and said the magic sentence,

cikgu i'm sorry.

and so being the sweet me, i forgave him.

i explained why i was angry and why he shouldnt be rude.

a lot like love.

reminds me of us.

*smiles*

i've just reserved a copy of the seventh and final book of the Harry Potter series.

and i'm feeling oh-so-happy. heh.

it'll be out this july.

and i can't wait for the mid-year.

wellie, first thing yes..the book.

i'll be out of Sembawang Pri, insya-Allah.

to pursue another diploma in nie this july.

and lastly, another harry potter movie will be out in the mid of this year.

double happiness?

nope. triple happiness!

hah.

happy.happy.

miss you mister!

many people in the world are celebrating valentines day.

i'm sorry to say but many of my Muslim friends celebrate it too.

little did they know its haram.

well to me you dont need to wait for valentines day

just to show that someone u love him or her.

you can show it to them everyday.

Nabi Muhammad saw:

"Barang siapa meniru suatu kaum, maka ia termasuk dari kaum tersebut".

ku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi

sometimes i just wish i could shut myself away from the world.

from everything.

from everyone.

maybe that includes u.

yes i definitely have a big problem managing my anger.

i say things i dont mean to say.

but i do love you.

comot was attacked by a 3 dogs late one night.
i was asleep.
woke up the next day to find her moaning in pain in the kitchen.
she looked so so weak.
thot she would be fine.
but no.
we brought her to the vet and she got hospitalised.
for 2 days.
when we collected her, the vet gave us 2 options.
1. she's young, put her to sleep
or
2. let her cure on her own
of course we cant bear to put her to sleep. cruel isnt it?

brought her home and nurse her.

but she refused to eat.

she became weaker.

her condition is bad.

because the dogs damaged her spinal chord.

stupid damn dogs.

and so she left us all.

last tuesday, 23rd Jan.

we buried her right outside my window.

she actually survived for about a week.

i cried. ibu cried.

and now i'm sick.

kind of missing her company.

no more comot waking me up in the middle of the night.

no more comot curling up on my bed beside me.

no more comot playing with the scratching post.

we love you, comot!

the once playful and cheerful comot.

Happy 25th Birthday, Mister!

hope u liked every bit of your birthday celebration.
nothing else that i hoped for apart from ur happiness.
pwincess loves her pwince.

goodbye 2006!

hello 2007.

the year may be gone,

but memories will stay etched in my mind.