a short update of what i did over the weekend.

attended my cousin's wedding function.

which was held at aloha changi cottage.

everything was so nicely planned out.

wedding of the year i shuld say.

pictures will say it all.

had a bad start in sch this term.

i dun like it when pple boss me around.

unless u're really my boss la rite.

since i'm leaving pretty soon for nie,

theres another teacher taking over me already.

and she's been ordering me around

like i'm her maid.

getting me to go to classes,

just so she can take her own sweet time up.

and asking me to leave anytime she wants.

wait. theres more.

she actually got me to carry out her own duties.

how fair is that?

hmph!

i've talked to my subject head about it.

just letting him know what has been going on.

and yes. i'm holding on.

and counting down to my last day.

24th july. i cant wait!

my greatest fear...

is waking up to find out you're no longer here.

i heart you.

Yazid's comms parade was super-duper cool.
it was my first time witnessing such thing.
the way they march,
the way they turn,
the sounds of the marching,
it was awesome!

and i was so proud,
to find out that my fri end,
was the commander of his contingent.
which happens to be yazid's contingent.
way to go, boy!

this was what we resort to when we get too bored.
hah.
blame it on yazid lah!
we had to wait for him while he's having his 6 course dinner.

last stop, the crazy us.
=)

i really miss my poly days.

looking thru all the pics we took,

i just cant help smiling to myself.

my 8 meanies,

i wish we could all go back to sch again.

nvm all those late nite sleeps.

nvm all those big lame projects.

nvm all those lil squabbles we had.

i still love you girls to bits.

now amoi is back,

we have to have an outing soon.

just the 8 of us!

counting the days.

to our KL trip.

till then, take care meanies.

mwahs.

me most fav pic of us!

holidays are boring!
this is indeed me.
when its sch term,
i crave for holidays.
when holidays are here,
i'm bored.

i'm contemplating whether or not to take the hostel in ntu.
i want it because i want the experience.
i thought it sounds like fun.
heh.
another thing is, i wuld want to try out for floorball.
cca means ending school late at night.
form already filled up.
its a matter of sending it back to them.

syahidah, congrats to ur bf.
its really nice to know that..
someone from the malay community excels in their studies.

counting down the hours.
miss you.

the weekend trip to tioman was great.
snorkelling was fun.
i like it when i get to swim with the fishes.

not forgetting the company too.
they were great.
me and wati actually made new friends.

we extended our stay for a day more.
becoz it was really fun.
and so we culd go back with our new found friends.
heh. free trip home. *winks*

they are actually made up of 4 malay families from spore.
great people.
i really look forward to have another trip like this.
anyone? hehe.

welcome back irliana.
welcome back mister.
and it's the 5th.
*winks*

sch term 2 ends yesterday.
feeling both happy and sad.
both at the same time.
happy coz i noe i'll have a great holiday.
with overseas trips and whatnot.
sad becoz i'll miss my kids.
esp my p3 babies.
they always brighten up my days.

when sch starts next term,
i will no longer be teaching them.
instead i'll only be helping the teacher replacing me.
they were sad with the news.
its always hard when u have grown attached to them.

while i was out for learning journey yesterday,
my colleague relief my p3 class.
she made them make farewell cards for me.
which i have not read yet.
becoz i will cry!

i'll be missing you too.
yes you.

05.05.07

a simple but yet memorable day.
you're simply the best.

Thank you for all these times.
Thank you for all your patience.
Thank you for all your love.
Thank you for making me special.
I love you.

You're truly a gift from up above.
I thank God for the beautiful gift he gave me.

Happy Anniversary, Mister!

freedom writers was great.
great movie.
great company.
i want more!

and so i feel so motivated to teach after watching the movie.
i'm gona get the book and dvd.
well i gez in teaching line, u just need constant motivation.
especially when you are teaching the lower end classes.

this week is packed with teaching my kids oral.
it gets boring when you keep on repeating the same thing.
but i'm worried for them.

tell me what's wrong with the name Danish.
apparently, this old teacher (heh pardon me!) vett my p3 paper 2.
and she got me to change the name Danish to SALIM becoz its negative?
how nice...
when i looked it up to find the meaning,
it means intelligent...
so is intelligent a negative thing?
funny pple lah!

missing you and your company, mister.

something for me to ponder on..

and definitely to learn from..

watch your thoughts, they become words.
watch your words, they become actions.
watch your actions, they become habits.
watch your habits, they become character.
watch your character, they become destiny.

is persistence a strength or a weakness?

too many things left unsaid.
i can't pretend anymore.

sfl 2007 division 1 has come to an end.

fc squirrettes manage to escape relegation.

what i would say,

few new faces with a much better performance this season.

end of div 1 marks the start of div 2 soon.

can't wait to see my mister in action!

will miss my fellow squirrettes alOt!

one person can make you the most happiest girl.

one person can make you cry like the world has ended.

that one person can also make you scream with anger.

well, i'm confused!

cemburu itu datang dengan sendirinya.

mungkin cemburu tandanya sayang.

tetapi cemburu juga boleh menyakitkan.

jika si dia orangnya terlalu peramah.

jika si dia orangnya terlalu suka bergurau.

pasti kadangkala cemburu itu akan bertandang di hati.

recent JB trip with the bf left a big regret.

lesson learnt: never bring a clutch bag to JB!

*sigh*

on another note, i'm busy..

indulging myself in sinful dunkin donuts!

yummy!

mister, thank you.

every moment counts. *winks*

so pics sums up the first day of boredom in sch.

we had lotsa fun taking pics!

and we have yet another day to go through.

wellie, we have my little kodak to keep us company.

the boy who made my days colourful.

you're my only reason to smile!

mwahs.

match against LMFC today.

also known as moosettez.

though it was a lost,

guess we played quite well,
compared to the past seasons against them.

goal achieved!

i irritate jill quek.

muahaha.

she lost her grip just coz i charged her with my stick.

look who doesnt have the sportsmanship.

quack.quack.quack.

she said i'm destructive to their game play.

and i played dirty.

wellie isnt it good?

pwincess is so proud of herself today!

yahoogroups for the joyriders is up.

please upload pics and more pics!

and mister,

thank you for making my days colourful!

wellie good news have to be shared with all right?

so its a second win for squirrettes this season.

who says squirrettes can't?

we cAn!

heh.

first win was against ntu storm. 3-1

second win was against RP. 3-1

as described by fahmi and aishah i'm mean milin.

hmm..so being the mean one,

i made many RP players angry and rather frustrated.

it was sucha nice feeling!

haha. *mean laughter*

whenever i'm near any of them,

i will use my stick to hit their shin or wherever i feel like.

heh. mind that i dont have the ball with me.

so beware!

school having ca1 now.

no more lessons but had to do invigilations.

am so looking forward to the one week break.

did i mention that some kids call me n my 2 other colleagues,

powerpuff girls!

hah. and i'm buttercup coz i'm loUd.

there are others who call us charlie angels too.

hehe. 3 of us are lyk triplets as described by our OM.

buttercup loves her p-a-p-a-n!

happy anniversary, mister!

movie date with a girlfriend.

dreamgirls.

rating: 7/10

great movie but too much singing.

hah. got a bit fed up about it.

coz even when they are talking, they sing to each other.

a bit stupid lah.

this friend of mine is just like me.

we go crazy about shoes.

when shoe freaks get together..hmmm..

haha.

we will shop till we drop.

getting low on cash now.

blame my shopping.

and blame the shopping centres to be having sale at the end of the mth.

bah.

the girlfriend.

on another note, old gfs i miss you loads.

aura, meanies..

take care ulfy. *smiles*

mister, i love you.

the nicest thing to hear from your student when you're angry,

"cikgu, saya minta maaf."

hmmm..it touches me.

i got very angry with a student for being rude.

therefore i got him to pack his belongings and got him out of the class.

i didnt know where he went to after that.

Minutes after the bell rang for the next class,

he came in.

He held out his hand to salam me

and said the magic sentence,

cikgu i'm sorry.

and so being the sweet me, i forgave him.

i explained why i was angry and why he shouldnt be rude.

a lot like love.

reminds me of us.

*smiles*

i've just reserved a copy of the seventh and final book of the Harry Potter series.

and i'm feeling oh-so-happy. heh.

it'll be out this july.

and i can't wait for the mid-year.

wellie, first thing yes..the book.

i'll be out of Sembawang Pri, insya-Allah.

to pursue another diploma in nie this july.

and lastly, another harry potter movie will be out in the mid of this year.

double happiness?

nope. triple happiness!

hah.

happy.happy.

miss you mister!

many people in the world are celebrating valentines day.

i'm sorry to say but many of my Muslim friends celebrate it too.

little did they know its haram.

well to me you dont need to wait for valentines day

just to show that someone u love him or her.

you can show it to them everyday.

Nabi Muhammad saw:

"Barang siapa meniru suatu kaum, maka ia termasuk dari kaum tersebut".

ku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi

sometimes i just wish i could shut myself away from the world.

from everything.

from everyone.

maybe that includes u.

yes i definitely have a big problem managing my anger.

i say things i dont mean to say.

but i do love you.

comot was attacked by a 3 dogs late one night.
i was asleep.
woke up the next day to find her moaning in pain in the kitchen.
she looked so so weak.
thot she would be fine.
but no.
we brought her to the vet and she got hospitalised.
for 2 days.
when we collected her, the vet gave us 2 options.
1. she's young, put her to sleep
or
2. let her cure on her own
of course we cant bear to put her to sleep. cruel isnt it?

brought her home and nurse her.

but she refused to eat.

she became weaker.

her condition is bad.

because the dogs damaged her spinal chord.

stupid damn dogs.

and so she left us all.

last tuesday, 23rd Jan.

we buried her right outside my window.

she actually survived for about a week.

i cried. ibu cried.

and now i'm sick.

kind of missing her company.

no more comot waking me up in the middle of the night.

no more comot curling up on my bed beside me.

no more comot playing with the scratching post.

we love you, comot!

the once playful and cheerful comot.

Happy 25th Birthday, Mister!

hope u liked every bit of your birthday celebration.
nothing else that i hoped for apart from ur happiness.
pwincess loves her pwince.

goodbye 2006!

hello 2007.

the year may be gone,

but memories will stay etched in my mind.

pretty long absence.
holidays coming to an end.
oh how i dread it.

apac was great.
new friends.
new experience.
iff seminar wasnt bad either.
we got to sleep over at the sports school.
which was really a cool thing.
hee. never imagined myself setting foot in it.

wellie..let the pics do the talking..


me, najib, ross

me and mister

our lil celebration..haha

hardworkin people...

us and the aussie refferees, nick & paul.

me & scott o'brien..isnt he hot? muahaha

us and the aussies

cant get enuff of ourselves

us & the Indians

wyldkatz, i may not be with you
but my spirit will always be there with u.
make me proud, girls.
i was so nervous for 'my' girls just now.
(yes ulfy, aisah they are still mine!)
i felt i was actually going to play for them.
how i wish!

i wish you knew.
how my heart long for the old times.
i was blind.
i was selfish.
i was spoiled by ur love.
so near yet so far.
thats how i feel.
we seem to be like in 2 different boats.
sailing away from each other.
don't let me drift away.
coz i truly love you.

today, it was settled.

i had to meet my VP.

apparently this James boy,

the one i was talking about in my previous entry.

he took malay in pri 1. he was in another sch then.

he was absent for 6 months frm sch after the 1st sem.

and joined our sch later when he was in p2.

he was having problems with the previous sch.

he has been failing his malay since p1.

and now mum is blaming me.

how fair is that?

thing is the boy has already given up.

he told his form teacher that he doesnt like malay.

so how much can i help?

i dont mind going the extra mile.

but cant the mum be a bit more appreciative of what we had done for him.

we sacrificed our time to have personal remedial with him.

what more does she want?

i'm trying my best to take everything positively.

its definitely a learning experience for me.

a quote to live by,

"i touch the future. i teach"

-Christa McAuliffe

and so i've come to a conclusion,

when there is love, there is pain.

i wonder how my friends are doing..

those who are working..

those who are schooling..

and not forgettin one who is abroad.

i so miss school!

i so miss the company!

and i so miss the laughter that we shared...

so when are we going for raya outing?

any plans meanies....fellow joyriders?

i'm looking forward to the weekends.

and yessa i survived the week.

yey! what day is tomorrow?

FRIDAY! and friday means a day more to Saturday.

weeee~!

after calculating the marks,

i have 3 failures in my p4.

i have no idea what's happenin to them.

coz the p4 paper is so so easy to score!

have yet to get back my p3 papers from my colleagues.

talking about p3, i have this chi boy in my class.

yes. he's taking malay.

and i gave him remedial evry tues and thurs.

ADHD boy. always in his own world in class.

and mum doesnt believe us.

instead she blames the teachers.

he has written nothing for his SA2 compo!

when i already asked him to at least write the helping words down.

he wrote nothing..nothing!

and best thing...the mum wrote a letter to MOE,

asking them what kind of teachers does Sembawang has.

she just refuse to believe that her son has no interest in studies.

and now i have to meet my VP to talk about him.

such a pain in the ass lah this people. so geram!

i was informed which level i'll be teaching next yr.

will be sticking to the present time-table.

that means taking the p5 and p6 em3.

but good news is that i'm taking the good p3 and p4.

i'm just hoping and praying that Rafi boy will b in another class.

sorry for the long absence.
busy and tired with the working life.
and now with the raya visiting.
hardly have any personal time for myself.

children taking their final year exams.
kinda scared for them.
but i'm actually proud that many of my students..
well not all..actually memorised what i asked them to
for their karangan..
i feel oh-so-proud of them..
here's what i asked them to memorise by hard.
its for the opening of the compo.
"Cuaca pada hari itu sungguh cerah.
Bunyi burung yang berkicau-kicauan sangat merdu.
Angin yang meniup sepoi-sepoi bahasa menyamankan lagi
suasana pada hari itu. Perasaan saya sungguh gembira."
bagus tak? bagus tak?
heh.

i promised to upload pics of my new bed. so here goes..

see that 'little princess' pillow. my fav for now.
a birthday gift from my fellow joyriders.


my new curtains. nice kann....

cant help it but to feel jealous.

no matter whether u're my fren or not,

i'll still feel jealous.

so get away!

surfing net in school.
something which i rarely do.
its boring when you have nothing much to do.
but i'll cherish every minute of it.
i like it when the staff room is almost empty.
you can do whatever you want and have nothing to worry about.

shopped at ikea last nyte.
bought myself a day bed.
just wanted to have my bedroom changed.
will post a pic up when it is delivered to me.

well now that i'm working, must i give duit rayer?
sungguh menyedihkan!
i would rather be studying and receiving money..
rather than giving out money.
*sigh*

a week more to go...

friday marks the end of my long week.

and i'm always in high spirit when its coming to an end.

but lately my mood hasnt been good.

pmS? nah..its the kids.

they are driving me nuts.

whenever i have lessons with my p3,

my mood will automatically change.

they are still young..yes..

still look like babies..yes..

but becoz of one boy, lessons with them are hell.

a boy with an attitude, a big bully, and a very corrupted mind.

imagine a 9 yr old saying, 'jubur', 'fuck', 'chibai', 'kiss my ass'.

he's a real monyet lah.

having to deal with him is one thing, my p5 em3 are gettin out of control too.

i cried on friday. becoz i was just too angry.

too too angry!

i was asking this boy to sit down, and he shouted back at me,

"saya punyer pasal ah cikgu!"

he raised his voice at me! not once. but many times.

that trigger evrything.

i blew up.

i started shouting at them like some mad woman on the loose.

better not mess with me kids.

i'm no longer that sweet teacher you can toy around with.

looking forward to the new week.

becoz its psle marking day. and that means sch holiday.

yessa!

i just feel like posting an entry about myself.

i just looked through the papers which my fellow floorballers wrote.

the one they had to write about yazid, jason n myself.

yes i still keep all those papers.

because at least i know how i'm progressing as a person.

i may look tough on the outside.

but only few knows that i'm actually soft on the inside.

first impression of me is always negative.

others find me arrogant.

hmmm...

i guess i'm strong-headed too.

and i can't admit defeat.

i always wonder if i had carried out my responsibilities as a leader.

i wonder if i've brought up and nurtured my wyldkatz well..

honestly it was hard for me to deal with the criticisms i get from some.

i acted strong because i had to.

eventhough some said i deserved the post, i question myself every now n then.

even now, when its over.

i blame myself for making such decisions.

have i made a mistake?

i wonder...

i'm striving to change into a more better person

be patient.

do not give up when you still have something to give

me n mister visited our dearest yazid in ocs on sunday.

together with his family in that big old trajet.

cheerful as always. gettting thinner n thinner.

later become kudut like me.

speaking of kudut..i weigh 46kg now.

in all i lost 4kg. thats bad. really bad.

no idea why i lost weight that much.

because i've been eating a lot...

ibu have been asking me to pay a visit to the doc.

but being the stubborn me, i just refused to.

so back to ocs.

its a very big camp. very big mind you..

and i just learnt that..

they have to study and sit for exams.

no wonder its called a school.

and there are ladies..cool huh...

let the pics do the talking..

mister, yaz & me in his bunk

the very big dining hall

the nice view from the HQ

the tank yazid drove..hah..kiddin

dearest yazid

me & mister

gift & letters from cambodia

thank you dear ones for always having me in mind.

we'll be back.

soon.

16th september.
we had a joyride cum birthday celebration.
at changi beach.
it was so nicely planned.

and the surprise was a really nice one.

the birthday surprise was after maghrib.

now i noe y ulf dragged me to the toilet even i when i refused to.

so that they can get me away.

when we came back, ulf asked for the telekong.

i just told her its inside the tent.

but yazid insist that i find it for her.

so i went to the tent, and found myself surrounded by all of them.

i was scared to open the tent at first.

when i did, they threw star glitters at me and sang a birthday song.

thank you, lovelies.

i had a blasssssssssssst!

september babies

me with the oh-so-nice cake

joyriders

aj, me & mister

yesterday was aj's birthday.
so we threw her a surprise at her house.
thanks to her bestfriend and gang.

we were instructed to be at her house at 745pm.
apparently we were a bit late.
after all the walking from al-iman mosque.
when we (the girls) finally reached aj's void deck,
we saw yazid and hermie coming towards us.
they said they saw aj at the carpark.
and we went, oh shit.....
so...we ran all the way to her house.
like some elephants on the run.
luckily her house was on the 2nd level.
thank god!

shuld hav videoed the look on aj's sis and dad.
muahaha. we muz have been really loud.
we hid in her parents' room.

we hid in her room.

lying on the floor waiting for the birthday girl in darkness.

well i nearly fell asleep coz you took so long!
as she opened the door to her room,
and lights were switched on, we went...
"SURPRISE!"
aj was screaming and jumping lyk some monkey on the loose.
hee. and she juz threw her bag on the floor.
then...her bf and friends came out with the cake..
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to Aisah,
Happy Birthday to you!

it was nice to see you happy.

it was nice to see you enjoying your 21st birthday.

we love you, baby.

mwahs.

so its payday.
yayness.
and i got myself a long skirt from Metro today.
heh.
just cant resist it coz its 70% off.
$79.90 and now selling for $16.90.
its was kinda love at first sight.
saw it. grab it. bought it.
never had i bought something without doing much thinking.
just wanted to treat myself after a long day at work.

feeling kind of scared now.
because the VP saw me threatening a p5 kid.
with that long wooden ruler of mine.
'samurai sword' as described by them. heh.
the thing is i dun noe if she saw me hit him with it.
i mean it wasnt really a hard hit. just a tap on his back.
die lar.die lar.
she always caught me at the wrong time.
always walking past the wrong class.
the em3s.
*sigh*

on the other hand, i'm happy coz
my birthday's coming soon!
yay!
got my prezzy ready oready? hehe.
3 days to go. weeeee~!
what will you surprise me with this time round?

my body's aching all over.

blame me for not attendin training for so long.

skills getting rusty. my shots weren't accurate.

*sigh*

kinda disappointing.

but i'm proud of myself for running 4 rounds around the blue track.

and i was fasting that thursday.

good ehh? heh.

so we went out yesterday.

after so long.

looking forward to next outing.

as always. can never get enough of you.

wishing that everyday would be a bright day.

i cried

because i miss you.

i cried

because i need you.

i cried

because i love you.

i will not let go till you tell me to.

so near yet so far.

i'm broken when i'm lonesome

and i don't feel right when you're gone away.

so its september.

and like aj, i'm happy.

why?

because my birthday is on 15th September.

Friday, 15th September.

heh.

remember that people...

on the other hand, feeling quite low though.

i miss you, mister.

like really really miss you.

*sigh*

so yesterday, we had a family gathering.

yes aj is part of us.

we went to wac this malay bangsawan at victoria theatre.

not so hard to understand la.

hah.i made abah sit next to me just in case me n aisah get lost.

after which we went for our supper. no actually dinner la.

poor aj..had to wait so long for her food. dah lah puasa kan.

then headed to ECP. that was about 2 in the morning.

plan was to hang around for a while then back home.

but ended up staying there till about 11am.

aj, jangan serik eh. heh. my family very the last minute one.

we dont make plans. on the go kind of people la gitu..

here i stand alone

with this weight upon my heart

and it will not go away

in my head I keep on looking back

right back to the start

wondering what it was that made you change

well I tried

but I had to draw the line

mister, i love you.

had to go Sembawang park yesterday.

with p6 em3 students.

but it was raining so heavily. so it was cancelled.

*yayness*

but..i had to rot with them in the AVA room

and so i missed the concert.

only managed to see the last item.

=(

when school ended, we rushed for the toilet.

to get changed for the teachers' day hi-tea.

i had to rush to do my prayers.

i had to rush back to the staff room

to take my hp and purse.

so i was practically running the whole school.

then of all days, a parent wanted to meet me.

just to ask whether his son have got back his ca2 paper.

*shakes head*

when i finally got up the bus, there was no seat left!

so me and a few other teachers had to wait for another bus.

that made us late for the hi-tea.

an hour late.

*sigh*

bad day.bad day.

but food was great. company was great.

the view from the 69th floor from Swissotel was breathtaking.

at least a part of my day was nice.

after the hi-tea, headed to ibu's shop.

to kill time.

coz i had a date with jelly at night.

accompany her shopped at Mango.

then had drinks at Mc Cafe.

after that headed for our mocie at Lido.

we watched break-up.

aj, i totally agree with u.

i almost doze off. heh. shuld hav listened to u lah.

its so so boring lah can!

and..

home sweet home.

maafkan aku bila meragukan ketulusan hatimu.

maafkan aku bila meragukan kejujuran cintamu.

maafkan aku kerana ku sungguh terluka.

kembalilah jika kau sudah bersedia.

i hate mondays.because its just the start to a whole new week.

well at least i have thursday and friday to look forward to.

i love teaching.but the kids that i'm teaching..

they drained me out of my energy.

and i so dread going to the p6 EM3 class.

i will always drag myself slowly up to their classroom.

so that i can at least waste some time.

bad teacher. bad teacher. i noe. but wdh.

i'll be out of school on thursday.going to sembawang park.

with the p6 EM3 class.*shakes head*

haiz. can i get an MC on that day?

i'm feeling low because i'll be missin the concert.

and how can i get prezzies when i'm out of sch?

muahaha.

ulfy, date me out ok.

i need company.

i noe u need me too.

heh.

One look

One smile

One touch

One embrace

One kiss

One love

Two people

Two minds

Two souls

Two destinies

One road

One journey

One ending

Together.

mwahs.

dahulu

ku cukup pasti

tentang dirimu

kini

ku bingung

apa mahumu

tapi yang ku pasti

tak mungkin akukan berundur

kerna

kaulah satu satunya

yang teristimewa

Kerana terlalu mengasihi

Akhirnya terluka aku sendiri

just let me have your hands in mine.

and let me hold on to it tightly.

missing you badly.

drifting away.

Rossa - Tegar

Tergoda aku untuk berfikir

Dia yang tercinta

Mengapa telah lama tak nampak

Dirimu di sini

Jangan kan ingin ku tersenyum

Tak ada daya

Ku ingin selalu bersamamu

Kini ku resah

Diriku lemah tanpamu

Gapai semua jemariku

Rangkul aku dalam bahagiamu

Ku ingin bersama berdua

Selamanya

Jika ku buka mata ini

Ku ingin selalu ada dirimu

Dalam kelemahan hati ini

Bersamamu

Aku tegar

hate it when i want so much to meet you,

but you can't.

hate it when we are both too busy

to make time.

i just hate it when work comes in between.

i don't want to love you, but it's something i love to do.

tell me how.

PSLE oral for this 2 days.

i'm so so free.

so so nice.

but i still have to go to school lah.

today's mornin was spent slacking in the canteen.

with 2 other colleagues.

we had to take care of students' handphones.

we can't help it but keep on talking abt kids these days.

they are so pampered.

so 'advance'.

unlike us when we were in primary schools.

things are so so different now.

and i so hate modern parents.

2 HFMD cases in my school.

and now we have to do checks every mornin.

so leceh lah can.

i have to be in sch by 645am tmr.

just to do checks on students.

grrrr....

this is so stupid.

i get so worked up watchin spore idol today.

how can the 3 good singers be in the same group?!

and their group is not the safe one.

mathilda.hady.jonathan.

i thought they will at least make it to the top 3.

so sad.

and its so sickening that joakim is still in!

people are voting because of popularity and not talent.

can't get enough of you.

work is creating a distance.

between you and me.

the more i learn, the more i love.

the more my heart can't get enough.

that's when i love you.

no matter what.

went to tampines earlier today.
to watch his match.

pretence.pretence.

12.08.06
birthday cum farewell party at liana's.
food was great. coz there was my fav potato salad.
heh.

Happy 20th Birthday, babe!
you are going to be missed.
by me.
love ya lots.
mwahs.


this was us back in year 2?
memories will never be forgotten.

after that headed off to clementi.
to meet my mister.
made our way to city hall.
to meet up with aisah, yaz, jelly and adi.
for the fireworks display.
the bridge that connected esplanade n merlion was so so packed.
we couldnt even make our way to the centre to meet jelly.
it was great though. even when i felt like a sardine in a can.

ulfy, i'm sorry if this entry came a bit too late.
Happy 20th Birthday, darling.


cant deny it but we both look sweet lah kan..
muahaha...

nites all.

nites mister.

coping much better with work.

teaching doesnt sound fun anymore when u have to work with 'gondol' kids.

heh.

was so happy to hear that the teacher is coming back.

BUT.

he wont be taking his classes straight away.

he will be doing my LSP!!

coz he's still unstable to climb the stairs.

grrr...

i cant wait for the p6 em3 to finish their exams.

then...i will be freed!

i wont be visiting them again.

so so great!

the p3 are the other class which is drivin me nuts!

so many gondols..

one with durian hair..

one with dyed hair..

and they just cant stop talking.

and they are so so damn rude lah can...

but i love my p4 students.

angels.

everyday during the week, i look forward to a wonderful weekend.

and when weekends are finally here, i just don't want to start another week.

can i just stop the time from moving?

i'm addicted.

to you.

love ya mister.

down with fever.

still doing relief for that sick teacher.

kids are making me crazy.

and i'm losing the sweetness in my voice.

muahaha.

cikgu amilin rock lah.

seeing you smiling makes me want to smile too.

forgot that i was supposed to be angry.

you.

i miss you.

immature love says: " i love you because i need you."

mature love says: " i need you because i love you."

enough.

period.

i dont like mean people.

if you want people to understand you,

why don't you try to understand others too?

where'd you go?

i miss you so

seems like its been forever

that you've been gone

please come back home

She said somedays I feel like shit

Somedays I wanna quit

and just be normal for a bit

I don't understand why youhave to always be gone

I get along but your trips always feel so long

And I find myself trying to stay by the phone

Because your voice always helps to not feel so alone

But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call

And when I pick up I don't have much to say,

so I want you to know it's a little fucked up that

I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating

Telling you that I've had it with you and your career

Me and the rest of the family here singing

again why don't you try to appreciate me while i'm still around?

second day at work at Sembawang Primary.

very tiring!

for the first three days, i have to do observation.

of different classes in all levels.

today while i was half awake at the back of the class (because its in the mornin la!),

had a surprise visit from the clerk.

well it was bad news for me.

i had to relief for another malay teacher.

and the bad news is that he happens to take all the rotten apples.

primary 3 wasnt so bad.

primary 5 & 6 was a killer.

because they are the em3 students.

they just wont listen to you.

especially the boys.

kinda looking forward to monday.

will finally start teaching.

will be doing the learning support program.

which is for the weaker students.

oh well..just wish me luck.

at least it'll be with the younger kids.

mwahs.

missing you mister.

firstly, i already got my posting.

will be teaching in Sembawang Primary School.

and lucky me..

i'm teaching the lower primary,

in the afternoon session.

lucky coz at least i get more sleep.

heh.

had to attend a teachers preparatory course earlier on.

been such a long time since i last had a lecture.

at least the company that i had was great.

nice bunch of people.

makes me recall my poly days.

how we used to be so noisy and giggly.

and guess who i met during the course?

"girlie!"

muahaha...

aura, u shuld noe who.

its her. yes ambiga.

remember how we used to hate her saying it..

Banquet just opened in Causeway Point.

that is pretty good news to me.

i've been longing to have one near my home.

and its so big...

best!

another long day tomorrow..

nites all.

*triple hugs for my mister*

"oh dale, here i come!"

everyday,

i look forward to..

talking to you..

at night.

but,

most of the time,

you'll be too tired to talk.

"its ok. at least i get to hear his voice."

i thought i was strong.

but no.

i cried because i miss you too much.

again appreciate me while i'm still here.

i wrote your name in the sky,

but the wind blew it away.

i wrote your name in the sand,

but the waves washed it away.

i wrote your name in my heart,

and forever it will stay.

feels great that the comp is ok now.

behave well ok.

woke up this mornin when i received a call from ulfy.

and..

found out that Samphors has left cpcdo.

she's this girl whom we are close to at the orphanage.

shocking news early in the morning.

apparently she left to work.

*sigh*

and no one bothered to inform us!

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some people just never change.

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i wish the rollercoaster will stop now that we are on top.

comp is down.

that explains my absence in msn.

i'm now at an internet cafe near the shop.

had to do something for abah.

and myself.

convocation is over.

it was nice though to be on stage.

with all eyes on you.

didnt expect the stage to be that long la.

the three meals with the other two was great.

annie n ulfy.

spend the whole day at Raffles.

eating.

lunch at Fig & Olive.

tea break at Deli.

dinner at BK.

we became porkies for a day.

muahaha.

but i had a great time.

dinner & Dance on 18th.

enjoyed the food.

especially the nachos and the cheese.

but didnt really enjoy the show.

with that really lame magic show.

by this guy named Shawn or was it Shaun.

wadeva the name is.

cant wait to collect my letters from cambodia.

hmm.

i'll walk into that big green gate soon.

Happy 20th Birthday, Jelly.

love you.

mwahs.

Missing you.

didn't go to the shop today.

a whole day lazing at home.

now i'm thankful that i at least have the shop to tend to.

kinda bored staying at home.

at least the chores do keep me busy.

can't help but thinking.

about you.

i have stopped hoping.

i have stopped asking.

if one day you find yourself lost, take my hand.

i'll show you the way back to my heart.

the evening was spent with aura.

had a wonderful time.

and yes we did what we were supposed to do.

eat and talk.

me being me.

cant help it when i see the word SALE.

i bought myself a Neckermann sandals.

and its pink.

upset though when i couldnt get what i actually wanted.

thank you aura.

masih ada kasih dari sinar matamu.

Alhamdulillah.

i'm offered contract teaching in a primary sch.

wished i had gotten the direct entry to NIE.

but syukur Alhamdulillah.

my prayers were answered.

so ulf, don't worry.

i won't be going over to Msia that soon.

you don't need to miss me lah k.

rahsia di hati tak siapa yang tahu.

the laughter that i share is actually fake.

the smiles are all fake too.

i'll wait.

but don't be too late.

2 entries in one day.

yupz.

i'm bored.

and feeling pretty low.

was i waiting for that call?

no, i'm not.

yes, maybe i am.

i used to look forward to weekends.

but now i dread it.

it used to be spent with u.

but now its like once in a blue moon?

take care, dear one.

time will decide.

sometimes.

your presence will be appreciated.

when you are no longer there.

if only i can run away.

from everything.

from everyone.

being in love.

is like being on a rollercoaster.

with no ending.

and i'm holding on tightly.

but.

be quick.

mister.

training's never the same without my crazy girls.

Ulf.Aisah.

the two who always makes training more fun-ner.

felt so alone.

felt so out of place.

maybe that explains that refreshing run.

6 rounds around the track after so so long.

people must think i'm crazy.

but i actually miss the campus run.

really do.

i miss those time when i still feel i belong.

to that family i've found.

me: girl nak apply to UM tau.

ibu: trylah tunggu nie.

UM, Universiti Malaya.

i want to be a teacher, an educator.

but why UM?

i hope to specialise in Malay Lang.

Just like abah.

its kinda hard to enter nie.

and truthfully i'm not strong enough to accept rejections.

bus ride was great.

wished you could share it with me though.

i'm not here for you only when you are happy.

that smile always makes me want to smile too.