on cloud 9

date.

movie.

lunch.

shopping. *i love*

i'm loving you more each day.

sorry.

we won.
but i didnt feel the victory.

unhappy.
upset.

sorry girls.
i lost my temper.

i am a bad leader.
i am a bad captain.

i think they made a mistake appointing me as your captain.
i know some of you are unhappy with the fact that i am the captain right from the beginning.

i am sorry.

bear with me.

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its really bothering me.
i dun lyk the way players are treating their fellow mates.
blaming the keeper everytime a goal is concede.

think.

why in the first place the ball got into the goalpost?

wheres the defenders?

wheres the midfields?

wheres the forwards?

a goal that is concede is never a keeper's fault.never.

if you cant respect your mates as players, respect them as humans.
humans deserves RESPECT from you.

KL trip

5 days in KL.
it was ooo-kay.
just okay.
heh.

why?
becoz i didnt really get to shop!
nOt fUn!

missing floorball.
missing my baby (thats my stick).
missing my friends.
missing the blue track.
missing the ball.

cant wait for training later.
frenly with YJC.
Lets kick some ass Wyldkatz.hah.

Met Syahidah.
Met Azri.
Met Annisha.
Met Nasaruddin.
Met Rasyid.
i miss going for MSS events.
that explains my presence.
actually i miss them all.

hmmm...

my birthday

birthday.
with my loved one.

you're just too sweet.
that's why i'm addicted to you.

i'm afraid i'll get diabetes ya noe.
heh.



My birthday cake


najib n me


the gift (he made it all by himself...hmmm)


another gift


him

baby aj

Dearest Aisah,
Today's entry is solely dedicated for you on your birthday.
*winkz*



Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to Aisah,
Happy Birthday to you.

Everyone should have a friend like you.
You are so much fun to be with.
And you make a perfect friend.
You crack me up with laughter.
And touch my heart with your kindness.
You have a wonderful ability.
To know when to offer advice.
And when to just remain quiet.
To sit and give me your support.
Time after time.
I've realized how fortunate I am.
In my life which includes you.
I really do believe that
Everybody should have a friend like you.
But so far it looks like
You are one of a kind!

Thank you Aisah.
Thank you for the friendship.
Thank you for everything.

P.S.: Despite everything, your captain still loves you just the way you are. Just look at the pic!

only u n me

a new beginning.
that's a promise.

learning to love you more each day.

patient.
determined.
understanding.
sweet.
that's you.

it's now..
about you,
about me,
about us,
i promise.

lurve you dearie.

a new chapter begins

dumb.
yes.
thats me.

stupid.
yes.
who else.
but me.

trying.
i am.
my best.
to hate you.

though i cant.
i have to.
to learn.
to let go of u.

bye.

the chapter ends here.
and a new one will begin soon.

dumb me!

one paper for exams.
which ended today.
its holidays.
finally.

went out with my meanies.
fun. fun. fun.
pics.pics.pics.
nothing else by the river.
thats wad the meanies always do =)

i thot the day would end just the way it started.
but i was wrong.
y muz u break it to me now?
i was not ready.
certainly not.
but.
certainly that wez the perfect bday gift ever.
thanks.

you went so far away.i dun think my hands could ever reach out to you.

i should have seen it coming.
i was fooled.
nah..i think i am dumb!
stupidest & dumbest gerl in the whole wide world.

yea.stupid me.

the wound was just about to heal.
but gez it will never stop bleeding now.

you.
take care.
i'll live, dun worry.
you are in your own world now.
i'm in mine.
dun think we'll ever cross path again.
but if we ever do.
juz promise me.
i'll get that stare.
u gave me the first time u lay your eyes on me.
bye.

-tears are falling again-

memories

I am juz done with my 2nd newsletter.
I'm still not sleepy coz i slept when i got back from the centre.
I so miss my beautiful sleep.

Without realising it, i only have one more day at the centre.
I made it to the end.Without falling.
I didnt know i was this strong.
Alhamdulillah.

I still remember complaining about quitting school when in year 2.
*winks at ulfy*
I still remember those sleepless nights getting assignments done.
I miss AURA.
I miss making those sounds with the straw in MSS and ended up missing prayers.
I miss doing assignments at canteen 2 and laugh till we cried when she fell.
*winks at annisha*
I miss taking the big green lorry to school with all our learning centre's materials.
*winks at all my meanies*

Can you believe it?
I'm graduating next april.
Insya-Allah.
But if i had a choice, i wouldnt want to...

I will miss waking up late and skipping lectures.
I will miss getting those warning letters.
I will miss picnic-king in class.
I will miss taking cabs to school.
I will miss running up to class to hand in assignments.
I will miss SIM.
I will miss borrowing books and buying bubble tea at the library.
I will miss getting all nervous when walkin through the sensor at library.
I will miss looking at boys. heh.
I will miss running at the tracks.
I will miss carrying the goalposts for floorball trainings...
and the list goes on.

I will miss everything.
Most of all, i will miss the places which holds so much memories of us.

Hmmm...thinking about all these gets me down. I always spent time thinking about my friendship.Will it last? Is it strong enough to last? Or would it just be gone when everyone goes on their separate ways?Just like what happen to my sec sch mates.
I will miss you, my meanies.

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Floorball's the way.
All the way, Floorball.

Friendly with SP tmr at 10am.
Pesta Sukan - Squirettes vs UWC
Tuesday, 30/08, 7pm.

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I have been doing alot of shopping lately.
I am becoming so like ibu.
We'll go crazy at the sight of shoes and bags.
Told ibu: Ibu, nanti girl kerja, hari2 cari kasut dengan beg.
Like mother, Like daughter.
This was what i bought for myself...

a $35 charles & keith shoes


a $19.90 sandals @ Metro *winks at ulfy*


a $25+ adidas handbag (which i wanted for so long)

your presence still lingers

2 am.
and i'm still awake.

Thinking about you.
About us.

him: can feel some part of me is still there

Well, i think so too.

But i'm sorry.

I thought u have left.
Leaving with that piece of me still safe with u.

smileys

Alhamdulillah.
I passed my assessment by my field supervisor.
Nice lady.Very chatty.
She said i had warm and positive voice. She could see that the children were very attached and comfortable with me. *winks*
I'm so so happy it's over.
one more assessment by my mentor.
talking about her, i n vic were so surprised by her friendliness the other day.
wad's got into her?
phew!
now i can really have all my heart in floorball.
niwaes lets just let the pics do the talking.

At padang...

the view from the top


annie, me n najib


the lovely fireworks




meanies
Singapore Fireworks Festival

how i wish my pwince charming would propose to me
under those lovely fireworks..*dreamy eyes*




najib,faris and me

The ides of March

ulfy, aisah and me


crazee floorballists




sue and yazid


me and najib

Teacher Lin @ work





my math learning centre


cute rite??? my favorite Chi Ya.


my favorite kiddie, Oiao Hui.

Happy Birthday Ulfy!

Happy Birthday to You!
Happy Birthday to You!
Happy Birthday dear Ulfy,
Happy Birthday to You!

Hey babe, you have exactly a year left to enjoy your teenage life.
Hee. So old liao eh. Me only 18 still.Oh yea!

Anyways, time flies. Without even realising it, i've known you for about 2 years +.
wellie, we've gone through alot together.alot indeed.
but no matter what happen,i still feel the same about u.
Luving u as always.

Thanx ulfy.Thanx for the friendship.Thanx for everything.

iT sUcKs

i might be mean.
i might be selfish.
but its for the team.
its for your team.
our team.

put yourself in my shoes.
being a captain.
u think its easy?
u think its for fame?
try it.

it sucks.
when u dont wanna cooperate.
i dun ask for much.
all i ask for is...
your support.

i dun care now.

-some people juz dont noe how to appreciate your presence and effort-

endurance

Been super busy lately.
mon-skewl
tues-skewl+floorball
wed to fri- childcare (thurs-floorball)
sat-my only rest day
sun-madrasah+wac his floorball match
apart from all these, i still need to prepare my lesson plans n materials for my 6 lessons and 2 learning corners.
*shakes head*
i'm so looking forward to 2nd september when all ends!
and to think i no longer need to go for attachment at childcare next semester!!

-trying hard to get my freaking mentor out of my mind-

missing my old childcare badly...

endure.endure.

loads to be done.

byez.

~it is still you i think about every night~

I want you to stay, friends, til the end.

Friends.
I'm sorry.
If I've left you.
In the dark for all these times.

I thought I was strong.
Strong enough to go through this alone.
But.
Certainly not.

I still need you.
All of you.
To stand by me.

Yes.
No one is perfect.
I should not have asked for more.
Coz when I met you, my friends.
I could'nt ask for anyone better.

I love you all.
AURA, I miss you all.
Really do.

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i hate it.

when you think he's the bad guy.

he's not.

certainly not.

u only know the other side of the story.

n please dun pretend u noe everything.

lost the trust in u.

u blew it all away.

A second too late

I turned back.
Turned back to look at him.
To look back at that someone.
That someone who touched my heart.

But.
I was too late.
A second too late.

He moved on.
Moving on further and further.
Further away from me.


the tears keep falling n falling without an end.
wouldnt want to say goodbye.
afraid that i mite lose u forever.

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Menunggumu - Chrisye feat Peterpan

Di dalam sebuah cinta
Terdapat bahasa
Yang mengalun indah
Mengisi jiwa
Merindukan kisah
Kita berdua
Yang tak pernah bisa
Akan terlupa

Bila rindu ini masih milikmu
Kuhadirkan sebuah tanya untukmu
Harus berapa lama aku menunggumu
Aku menunggumu

Di dalam masa indah
Saat bersamamu
Yang tak pernah bisa
Akan terlupa
Pandangan matanya

Menghancurkan jiwa
Dengan segenap cinta
Aku bertanya

Aku menunggumu

Dalam hati ku menunggu
Dalam hati ku menunggu
Aku..
Dalam lelah ku menunggu
Dalam lelah ku menunggu
Aku..
Masih menunggu

Bila rindu ini masih milikmu
Kuhadirkan sebuah...
Harus berapa lama, harus berapa lama
Aku menunggumu, aku menunggumu...

That Someone Special

I thank God.
For giving me a gift.
A gift of knowing someone.
Someone so understanding.
Someone so patient.
Someone so loving.
Someone so caring.
and.
Someone who loves me just the way I am.

~you are no longer that someone who were there at the right moment,the right place~

Jealousy

Today.
I just realised it today.
Only today.
That I'm still not over you.
I thought I was.
But truth is I'm not.

J-E-A-L-O-U-S-Y

Maybe i am stupid.Dumb too.
To let you go.
To cry over it when it's all over.
I'm sorry.

But please.
Please.
Please do acknowledge me.
Please do still acknowledge me as someone who have touched your heart before.

I might be selfish.
Yes i am.
I don't want you to ever let go of the past.
But i can't stop you.

Don't let go of those memories.
Cherish it.Treasure it.
Keep it safely in your heart.
I promise you that I will.

-my tears won't stop falling-

Happy Birthday!

To: You

Happy 19th Birthday!

I miss you on your birthday,
Not only for your smile,
But for the piece of me that's gone,
Left within your care.

friends come n go

hurt.

i juz realised u were not the kind of fren i used to think u were.

now.
i can only afford to look at u from far.
i can only afford to smile at u without u looking at me.
this was not the way i want it to be.
certainly not.