16th september.
we had a joyride cum birthday celebration.
at changi beach.
it was so nicely planned.

and the surprise was a really nice one.

the birthday surprise was after maghrib.

now i noe y ulf dragged me to the toilet even i when i refused to.

so that they can get me away.

when we came back, ulf asked for the telekong.

i just told her its inside the tent.

but yazid insist that i find it for her.

so i went to the tent, and found myself surrounded by all of them.

i was scared to open the tent at first.

when i did, they threw star glitters at me and sang a birthday song.

thank you, lovelies.

i had a blasssssssssssst!

september babies

me with the oh-so-nice cake

joyriders

aj, me & mister

yesterday was aj's birthday.
so we threw her a surprise at her house.
thanks to her bestfriend and gang.

we were instructed to be at her house at 745pm.
apparently we were a bit late.
after all the walking from al-iman mosque.
when we (the girls) finally reached aj's void deck,
we saw yazid and hermie coming towards us.
they said they saw aj at the carpark.
and we went, oh shit.....
so...we ran all the way to her house.
like some elephants on the run.
luckily her house was on the 2nd level.
thank god!

shuld hav videoed the look on aj's sis and dad.
muahaha. we muz have been really loud.
we hid in her parents' room.

we hid in her room.

lying on the floor waiting for the birthday girl in darkness.

well i nearly fell asleep coz you took so long!
as she opened the door to her room,
and lights were switched on, we went...
"SURPRISE!"
aj was screaming and jumping lyk some monkey on the loose.
hee. and she juz threw her bag on the floor.
then...her bf and friends came out with the cake..
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to Aisah,
Happy Birthday to you!

it was nice to see you happy.

it was nice to see you enjoying your 21st birthday.

we love you, baby.

mwahs.

so its payday.
yayness.
and i got myself a long skirt from Metro today.
heh.
just cant resist it coz its 70% off.
$79.90 and now selling for $16.90.
its was kinda love at first sight.
saw it. grab it. bought it.
never had i bought something without doing much thinking.
just wanted to treat myself after a long day at work.

feeling kind of scared now.
because the VP saw me threatening a p5 kid.
with that long wooden ruler of mine.
'samurai sword' as described by them. heh.
the thing is i dun noe if she saw me hit him with it.
i mean it wasnt really a hard hit. just a tap on his back.
die lar.die lar.
she always caught me at the wrong time.
always walking past the wrong class.
the em3s.
*sigh*

on the other hand, i'm happy coz
my birthday's coming soon!
yay!
got my prezzy ready oready? hehe.
3 days to go. weeeee~!
what will you surprise me with this time round?

my body's aching all over.

blame me for not attendin training for so long.

skills getting rusty. my shots weren't accurate.

*sigh*

kinda disappointing.

but i'm proud of myself for running 4 rounds around the blue track.

and i was fasting that thursday.

good ehh? heh.

so we went out yesterday.

after so long.

looking forward to next outing.

as always. can never get enough of you.

wishing that everyday would be a bright day.

i cried

because i miss you.

i cried

because i need you.

i cried

because i love you.

i will not let go till you tell me to.

so near yet so far.

i'm broken when i'm lonesome

and i don't feel right when you're gone away.

so its september.

and like aj, i'm happy.

why?

because my birthday is on 15th September.

Friday, 15th September.

heh.

remember that people...

on the other hand, feeling quite low though.

i miss you, mister.

like really really miss you.

*sigh*

so yesterday, we had a family gathering.

yes aj is part of us.

we went to wac this malay bangsawan at victoria theatre.

not so hard to understand la.

hah.i made abah sit next to me just in case me n aisah get lost.

after which we went for our supper. no actually dinner la.

poor aj..had to wait so long for her food. dah lah puasa kan.

then headed to ECP. that was about 2 in the morning.

plan was to hang around for a while then back home.

but ended up staying there till about 11am.

aj, jangan serik eh. heh. my family very the last minute one.

we dont make plans. on the go kind of people la gitu..

here i stand alone

with this weight upon my heart

and it will not go away

in my head I keep on looking back

right back to the start

wondering what it was that made you change

well I tried

but I had to draw the line

mister, i love you.

had to go Sembawang park yesterday.

with p6 em3 students.

but it was raining so heavily. so it was cancelled.

*yayness*

but..i had to rot with them in the AVA room

and so i missed the concert.

only managed to see the last item.

=(

when school ended, we rushed for the toilet.

to get changed for the teachers' day hi-tea.

i had to rush to do my prayers.

i had to rush back to the staff room

to take my hp and purse.

so i was practically running the whole school.

then of all days, a parent wanted to meet me.

just to ask whether his son have got back his ca2 paper.

*shakes head*

when i finally got up the bus, there was no seat left!

so me and a few other teachers had to wait for another bus.

that made us late for the hi-tea.

an hour late.

*sigh*

bad day.bad day.

but food was great. company was great.

the view from the 69th floor from Swissotel was breathtaking.

at least a part of my day was nice.

after the hi-tea, headed to ibu's shop.

to kill time.

coz i had a date with jelly at night.

accompany her shopped at Mango.

then had drinks at Mc Cafe.

after that headed for our mocie at Lido.

we watched break-up.

aj, i totally agree with u.

i almost doze off. heh. shuld hav listened to u lah.

its so so boring lah can!

and..

home sweet home.

maafkan aku bila meragukan ketulusan hatimu.

maafkan aku bila meragukan kejujuran cintamu.

maafkan aku kerana ku sungguh terluka.

kembalilah jika kau sudah bersedia.

i hate mondays.because its just the start to a whole new week.

well at least i have thursday and friday to look forward to.

i love teaching.but the kids that i'm teaching..

they drained me out of my energy.

and i so dread going to the p6 EM3 class.

i will always drag myself slowly up to their classroom.

so that i can at least waste some time.

bad teacher. bad teacher. i noe. but wdh.

i'll be out of school on thursday.going to sembawang park.

with the p6 EM3 class.*shakes head*

haiz. can i get an MC on that day?

i'm feeling low because i'll be missin the concert.

and how can i get prezzies when i'm out of sch?

muahaha.

ulfy, date me out ok.

i need company.

i noe u need me too.

heh.

One look

One smile

One touch

One embrace

One kiss

One love

Two people

Two minds

Two souls

Two destinies

One road

One journey

One ending

Together.

mwahs.

dahulu

ku cukup pasti

tentang dirimu

kini

ku bingung

apa mahumu

tapi yang ku pasti

tak mungkin akukan berundur

kerna

kaulah satu satunya

yang teristimewa

Kerana terlalu mengasihi

Akhirnya terluka aku sendiri

just let me have your hands in mine.

and let me hold on to it tightly.

missing you badly.

drifting away.

Rossa - Tegar

Tergoda aku untuk berfikir

Dia yang tercinta

Mengapa telah lama tak nampak

Dirimu di sini

Jangan kan ingin ku tersenyum

Tak ada daya

Ku ingin selalu bersamamu

Kini ku resah

Diriku lemah tanpamu

Gapai semua jemariku

Rangkul aku dalam bahagiamu

Ku ingin bersama berdua

Selamanya

Jika ku buka mata ini

Ku ingin selalu ada dirimu

Dalam kelemahan hati ini

Bersamamu

Aku tegar

hate it when i want so much to meet you,

but you can't.

hate it when we are both too busy

to make time.

i just hate it when work comes in between.

i don't want to love you, but it's something i love to do.

tell me how.

PSLE oral for this 2 days.

i'm so so free.

so so nice.

but i still have to go to school lah.

today's mornin was spent slacking in the canteen.

with 2 other colleagues.

we had to take care of students' handphones.

we can't help it but keep on talking abt kids these days.

they are so pampered.

so 'advance'.

unlike us when we were in primary schools.

things are so so different now.

and i so hate modern parents.

2 HFMD cases in my school.

and now we have to do checks every mornin.

so leceh lah can.

i have to be in sch by 645am tmr.

just to do checks on students.

grrrr....

this is so stupid.

i get so worked up watchin spore idol today.

how can the 3 good singers be in the same group?!

and their group is not the safe one.

mathilda.hady.jonathan.

i thought they will at least make it to the top 3.

so sad.

and its so sickening that joakim is still in!

people are voting because of popularity and not talent.

can't get enough of you.

work is creating a distance.

between you and me.

the more i learn, the more i love.

the more my heart can't get enough.

that's when i love you.

no matter what.

went to tampines earlier today.
to watch his match.

pretence.pretence.

12.08.06
birthday cum farewell party at liana's.
food was great. coz there was my fav potato salad.
heh.

Happy 20th Birthday, babe!
you are going to be missed.
by me.
love ya lots.
mwahs.


this was us back in year 2?
memories will never be forgotten.

after that headed off to clementi.
to meet my mister.
made our way to city hall.
to meet up with aisah, yaz, jelly and adi.
for the fireworks display.
the bridge that connected esplanade n merlion was so so packed.
we couldnt even make our way to the centre to meet jelly.
it was great though. even when i felt like a sardine in a can.

ulfy, i'm sorry if this entry came a bit too late.
Happy 20th Birthday, darling.


cant deny it but we both look sweet lah kan..
muahaha...

nites all.

nites mister.

coping much better with work.

teaching doesnt sound fun anymore when u have to work with 'gondol' kids.

heh.

was so happy to hear that the teacher is coming back.

BUT.

he wont be taking his classes straight away.

he will be doing my LSP!!

coz he's still unstable to climb the stairs.

grrr...

i cant wait for the p6 em3 to finish their exams.

then...i will be freed!

i wont be visiting them again.

so so great!

the p3 are the other class which is drivin me nuts!

so many gondols..

one with durian hair..

one with dyed hair..

and they just cant stop talking.

and they are so so damn rude lah can...

but i love my p4 students.

angels.

everyday during the week, i look forward to a wonderful weekend.

and when weekends are finally here, i just don't want to start another week.

can i just stop the time from moving?

i'm addicted.

to you.

love ya mister.

down with fever.

still doing relief for that sick teacher.

kids are making me crazy.

and i'm losing the sweetness in my voice.

muahaha.

cikgu amilin rock lah.

seeing you smiling makes me want to smile too.

forgot that i was supposed to be angry.

you.

i miss you.

immature love says: " i love you because i need you."

mature love says: " i need you because i love you."

enough.

period.

i dont like mean people.

if you want people to understand you,

why don't you try to understand others too?

where'd you go?

i miss you so

seems like its been forever

that you've been gone

please come back home

She said somedays I feel like shit

Somedays I wanna quit

and just be normal for a bit

I don't understand why youhave to always be gone

I get along but your trips always feel so long

And I find myself trying to stay by the phone

Because your voice always helps to not feel so alone

But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call

And when I pick up I don't have much to say,

so I want you to know it's a little fucked up that

I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating

Telling you that I've had it with you and your career

Me and the rest of the family here singing

again why don't you try to appreciate me while i'm still around?

second day at work at Sembawang Primary.

very tiring!

for the first three days, i have to do observation.

of different classes in all levels.

today while i was half awake at the back of the class (because its in the mornin la!),

had a surprise visit from the clerk.

well it was bad news for me.

i had to relief for another malay teacher.

and the bad news is that he happens to take all the rotten apples.

primary 3 wasnt so bad.

primary 5 & 6 was a killer.

because they are the em3 students.

they just wont listen to you.

especially the boys.

kinda looking forward to monday.

will finally start teaching.

will be doing the learning support program.

which is for the weaker students.

oh well..just wish me luck.

at least it'll be with the younger kids.

mwahs.

missing you mister.